Tuesday 30 June 2009

2nd day of term 3, had sastera class in the library and it was as cold as ice. lol. PE! haha. I especially had a lot of fun though my team lost both in soccer and basketball. i fell during soccer and i have an acute pain in my ankle right now. pro. haha. during eng, played wheel of fortune with imran. emath, nth much. mother tongue was fun. somehow. lol. history.. we have a new teacher in class, Mr Zhuang. so we now have 3 including ms tay and ms raiha. haha.

oh ya, we got to see our class photos.. ok lah. but one candid photo made me look like i lost a tooth. -_- haha.

and....... my cousin havent called. he said he would when he found his guitar to lend it to me. haha. yea.. dont have enough funds to buy my own yet. it'll be really great if i had my own though.

oh check out this song. super nice! i have it in my hp! haha.


We Both Know Feat. Guy Sebastian - Amy Pearson

We both know
Where the runs where the river flows
When the sun sets while the night is cold
We both know We both know
When we smile and lie
When the truth is told
That the writings on the wall at home
We both know

Those dark clouds bring all the winter rain
Something tells me we'll be together again

At the end of the day
Though my heart burns
I am still in love (im still in love, i am still in love with you)
As our dreams fade away and the world turns
We will meet strangers on that road
And feel like, we both know

I watch the flame
Its flickering in the wind again
Its blowing out before nature has its way
While there's love to save

We both know
That we're holding on cos we cant let go
Have to give up on the fear of being alone
Yea we both know

As night falls we lose sight in the haze
Something tells me we will be together again

We both know
That the sands of time have run on through
And though i wish that it wasnt so
We both know

Monday 29 June 2009

first day of term 3. hmm... i guess i was too pessimistic about it. nothing major happened. didnt even get scolded. but something hilarious happened during malay class. so hafiz just finished reading an article. cikgu was just praising him when suddenly, hafiz falls back in his chair! hahaha. i should've seen his face lah. would've laughed like no mother.

oh. during MCS. the moment i came in, i saw a group of girls kicking a ball around the room. haha. then, some of the guys joined in to play.

anddddddddd.............. azlinda got PWNED! haha. hazim accidentally kicked the ball to her face. aiyo. lol.

hmm.. a few hours ago, i was checking my student handbook and found this quote.

Some people think you are strong when you hold on. Others think it is when you let go.
- Sylvia Robinson

obviously, it got me thinking lah.. hmm... should i hold on and hope for the better or just learn to let go? well to let go doesnt really mean to lose hope right? is it? lol. idk. i think i should hold on lah cuz i dont wanna do anything i'll regret in future but a big part of me tells me i should just let go. ahaha. wth. this isnt an emo part of my post hor.. was just thinking and typing along. =D

Saturday 27 June 2009


yesterday, bangsawan was relatively a lot more fun compared to past practices. The pegawai-s had to act like gays at one part. haha. and we get to pose when it comes to curtain call.. yay! lol. oh and there's a possibility khai and I will have to show some skin for the play.
*raises eyebrows* aha. so maybe you girls out there will be able to see our hot bods. hahahahahaha. just kidding! i bet khai doesnt mind lah. but i do. lol. damn, have to train my abs. rofl..

after bangsawan, went for friday prayer. prayed in the sun! first time! lol. so yea. then, went to lot 1 to meet up with syafiqah. then, off we went to vivo. the plan was to go sentosa and meet up with shazwani there but we met at vivo instead.. so yea.. met up with shaz. and your hair isnt funny lah. haiyo.. then then, ate at banquet. after buying my food, i found out that shaz had to go home. like what?!?!? all of a sudden? lol. then shaz cried! aiyo! why you cry?!?! oh ya. just remembered. she wants me to call her today.

so after shaz went off, we went to the Sky Park. haha. played at the wading pool. so weird lahcuz there were only two of us. then, i met hyper syafiqah.. haha. she goes hyper when she's bored. good thing i'm really patient. if not, you would have gotten really drenched lah. then then, i told her something. she thought i was gonna ask her for stead. lol. wth.. and and, i told it to ur face seh. and it's counted. =D

after much crapping, we decided to go off. yea.... that's about it luh. i got to know more about syafiqah yesterday. lol.


Wednesday 24 June 2009

oh no.. my dad had a small accident on the way home from work.. his bike skidded on the road when he was turning at a corner. then, he fell off his bike and his bike fell on him. so right now, he feels pain in his shoulder and has a slight bruise on his knee. kesian seh.. i dont think he'll be able to go to work 2mrw. he should take leave lah..

oh oh. i just remembered that i once asked if my dad had a girlfriend before my mom. the answer, no! haha. so pro lah my dad. i guess my mum was his first and last love.. awww.. so sweet.

hope my dad gets better..

transformers revenge of the fallen! hmm.. oklah. you guys should check it out.

Tuesday 23 June 2009

HAPPY THIRD MONTH TO AFIQAH AND HER *EHEM EHEM*

and.................

NCC CAMP IS FREAKING CANCELLED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


SO PPL... YOU CAN TEXT ME! haha.
homework's a chore.. boo! i still have lots more to do man.. furthermore, i have NCC camp from 2mrw to friday.. so pls don't text me during this period cuz i won't be able to use my handphone. it's not like the LIVE Operations camp you know. lol.

oh, this saturday, there will be cheering comp practice.. 3p1-derers, meet at 10 45 at cck interchange near Cheers.. yea. pass it on.

yea. that's all. going for ncc training later.. bye babes. haha.


^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

i should tone it down a bit, shouldn't i?

Saturday 20 June 2009


hmm.. haha. where should i start?
ok. maybe i've been way too selfish.
the stupid thing is that i just realized i've never bothered to ask you if your were alright.
or how you were feeling..
i always moaned and emo-ed without realizing that you needed me too.
and i'm truly sorry.
i guess i had let my feelings get the better of me.
they just made me oblivious to the obvious..
stupid huh? lol.. damn. i've been emo for far too long lah.
and it really has affected us..
no. 1, procrastination of hw.. boo!
no. 2, it just made things feel different between us..
again.. i'm sorry.
you have every right to hate me cuz i've irritated you too much lah.
haha.. i feel so stupid sia. wasted my time emo-ing. -_-
hmm.. I, Muhd Dzulridzwan, promise i won't stress my dear bestfriend, syafiqah, with all my problems. I also promise that i'll always be there for you. =D
i should always look on the brighter side of life like you always do. lol.
oh and don't worry abt ur answer. i can always ask again some other time.. haha.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

father's day 2mrw.

Wednesday 17 June 2009

i guess it's safe to say that the ones closest to you are the ones that hurt you the most..
lol... last night, i went emo until i fell asleep. i hate being emo lah. it's so lame don't u think so? it's better that i do something about my dilemma than be sad and moody about it right? haiya.. ok. here's my definition of being emo..

-not having self-worth
-losing hope
-being very pessimistic
-and basically being really dumb and stupid...

the weird thing is i dreamt about being a playboy! a playboy... not a playboy bunny -_- haha. so yea.. i had 3 girlfriends. one was fat.. one was my ex, aizurah, the last one a bit vague...

is it true that dreams are always the opposite of reality?
or maybe the dream tells be that i have to be more open to others.
but not too open to the point of being a playboy
maybe i dreamt of this cuz i've always been aloof for far too long.
damn.. how? how? should i change myself?
oh oh... pls don't help me on this. i need to figure this out on my own..
so nazihah pls restrain urself from trying to help me. ok?
i'll really appreciate it. thanks..

Sunday 14 June 2009

i dreamt i was a power ranger last night! omg! haha. so fun lah.. i was hitting the monster with my 2 cool swords with all my might.. but they broke. = O rofl.. nvm. we fought hard. but idk who won.
haha.. erm then i went on to dream about..... hmm.... forgot. lol.

Anarbor!


Demand Anarbor in Singapore!
Anarbor in Singapore - Learn more about this Eventful Demand

View all Singapore events on Eventful


check them out...

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

sad luh.. not going for bangsawan 2mrw. =(

Saturday 13 June 2009



Perkampungan Bahasa dan Budaya camp was okay..
I kept quiet most of the time though.
It's actually really weird lah..
But come to think of it, no it's not that weird.Confirm plus chop I have low self-esteem. haha.
yea. I guess I'm just less open in front of ppl I barely know..
Good thing towards the end of the camp I was able to talk to my fellow group mates more openly..

hmmm.. oh ya. haha. on two occasions, allisa, syazana, syafiq and I admired the moon and just talked until we were told to go to sleep. haha. quite fun..

and.... my group, Ramlians won the best group award!!! ahhaha. so shocking lah. i really didn't expect us to win but oh well. we did. haha. pro.. oh ya. I still have the tit-bits we won in my bag. haha. we got them two days ago! let's hope they're still edible.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

Yesterday

after friday prayer, i met up with syafiqah and her 2nd sis, kak yati i think..
INITIALLY, had planned to meet up with syafiqah and myra. haha. tak pe ah.
so, we ate a Macs. kak yati gave us a treat! haha.. so nice of her lah..
after eating, we went to west mall..kak yati bought for syafiqah a dress..
after going to harvey norman, we went to the library.
haha.. kak yati saw a hot guy in harvey norman..
while kak yati used the comp, we waited for myra..when myra came, we decided to go to clementi..but we had to pick up myra's sis first, minah..
so... bla bla bla bla bla bla.
myra lost her wallet.. haha. beloh seh.
but i pity her lah. fortunately, kak yati gave her 10 bucks for transport...
so yea.. our plans of going to clementi was cancelled cuz myra had to go home..
after much idling, we decided to go back to west mall to catch DRAG ME TO HELL.

OMGEEEEEEEEE! the movie was disgusting!!! hahaha. but it was funny at the same time. yea.. extremely ironic.. haha. I'd better warn you guys who are easily disgusted to think twice about watching the movie.. yea. that's all I can say.

oh yea. before and after the movie, we took neoprints.. haha. here's one.

Sunday 7 June 2009

ridzwan, ridzwan.. why do i always bring myself down to the lowest of lows? hmm.. maybe i have low self esteem. yea. that's probably it. and maybe, i don't feel that people value me. not that i want people to uh. but idk.. i'm just not motivated.. it's like i'm just wasting time everyday. there's no point in me living if that's the case right? i'm better of dead huh? haha.. the funny thing is i don't dare to kill myself lah.. i'm not that crazy. i'm still sane lah. lol. but.. i just feel like shutting myself from the world and be a loner. just FEEL like it. that's all. but that's totally impossible don't u think? maybe i should be less funny and friendly. but.. i can't. i'm naturally that way. right? haha. despite that fact, my natural self don't show what i really feel.. gah! this sucks! i really wanna confide in someone but it's really hard for me to do so lah cuz i've always been self-contained.. haiz.. i'm a disappointment to myself. GAWD!!!!! i'm so lame!

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

-i don't feel like going to the stadium 2mrw..
-lol.. ur parents..

Saturday 6 June 2009

woohoo, going for my first guitar lesson with hazim at imran's house later this afternoon. man, i really can't wait to be able to play the guitar like a pro. haha..
kay ah.. i'll go eat breakfast now. roti prata here i come! lol.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

sigh, sigh, sigh, sigh, sigh..

Friday 5 June 2009

I kinda expected you wouldnt turn up.. but why was I hoping you would, even at the last minute..?

Thursday 4 June 2009

hmm.. where should i start?
ok. let me start by telling u that i dont hate you.
erm, maybe i do hate you sometimes..
but i'll never hate you wholeheartedly.
and why do you even ask when i would leave you?
I mean are you expecting me to?
come on.. i told you already.
the only way i think for us to lose each other is for you to leave me.
despite that fact, i know you feel that it doesnt justify that i won't ever leave you.
hey, you have every right to be scared.
and i have every right to be scared too.
like i said,
the only way i think for us to lose each other is for you to leave me.
and i really don't wanna lose you.
regardless of whether I might lose you as a friend or anything more than that.
talking about that, i respect your every decision.
actually, i think it's best that we stay friends lah for now.
you know. i almost asked you THAT question yesterday when i was sending you home.
remember when i said, "So.." and i wouldnt tell you what i was gonna say?
yea.. i almost asked then.
you should probably know what the question is lah.
I'm actually glad i didnt cuz it would've made things more complicated.
and hey, when you finally know what you're feeling, do tell me.
hmmm.. isn't it funny and awkward that we're not together yet but already have so much going on? haha.
oh.. hey, stop crying, ok?

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

the song can wait...
sleeping with a heartache tonight. great.. i'm so lame.

Wednesday 3 June 2009

SAD LAH! aiyo. erm would you be disappointed if you miss someone but that someone doesnt miss you? lol. why am I even asking? stupid lah ridzwan.. you're not supposed to expect the other person to miss you if you miss him or her. duh.. beloh.. jangan perasan lah ridzwan.. look yourself in the mirror.. and think real hard. am I even worthy? I don't think so..
Past Praying For - VersaEmerge

Past Praying For


^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

4 dayssssss.... so long sia.. and hey, you made me miss you even more.

Tuesday 2 June 2009

woohoo! i bought a song legally! haha. it's Past Praying For by VersaEmerge. do check it out on youtube.

maybe i'll post about today 2mrw..