Run, Don't Walk - Hey Monday

I am restless, and I keep trembling

Everyone watch me as I descend

Into a feeling that's overwhelming me

I finally stopped, stopped making sense



I can't stop talking to myself, I'm a desperate cry for help



Run don't walk the sky is falling through

Don't talk, tonight I'm so confused

I'm lost, I'm lost with you

I don't care where we are, or where were heading to

But I know I'm lost, I'm lost with you, with you



Your mouth keeps moving

But I've lost focus now

Clock keeps ticking, times running out

Where were heading there's no heading back

Tripping, ugly, I'm losing ground



I can't stop talking to myself, I'm a desperate cry for help



Run don't walk the sky is falling through

Don't talk, tonight I'm so confused

I'm lost, I'm lost with you

I don't care where we are, or where were heading to

But I know I'm lost, I'm lost with you, with you



For the record, when I'm with you

Things are looking better

For once everything is brighter

Than the darkness before you



Run don't walk the sky is falling through

Don't talk, tonight I'm so confused

I'm lost, I'm lost with you



Run don't walk the sky is falling through

Don't talk, tonight I'm so confused

I'm lost, I'm lost with you

I don't care where we are, or where were heading to

But I know I'm lost, I'm lost with you

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went to school with syafiqah today.. we were almost late for school lah. interestingly, after syafiqah signed in after i did, the bell rang. heng ah. haha. oh yea, we ran also.. =D

hmm.. have to make this fast cuz my sis is pestering me to let her use the com.. erm, ok bpian idol. haha. syafiqah, so cute. can forget lyrics one. nvm lah. there's always next year.. =D
cheering comp has been postponed!!! haha. yea. that's all. bye peeps.

whoosay! currently listening to No Boundaries by Kris Allen. man, the final 2 performance was extremely enjoyable to watch. haha..

ok. so this morning, i met with 3p1-derers for cheering comp practice.. so yea. it went well. practised at CCK park. and we saw a couple kissing intimately. haha. then, we saboed xu ying. when he arrived we cheered him on and left. haha. but we had lunch at KFC later on..

YESTERDAY

had cheer comp practice at CCK. after that, played basketball. had fun. then, we went for lunch at Long John Silver's. THEN, went to imran's house at bukit batok. haha. played some game i played before called resistance or something. and i improved. yea! very proud of myself. haha.

after all that, rushed home, did my prayers and went to school for the ACJC drama.. after doing maghrib prayer in school, we hopped on the bus and went to ACJC, the JC i wanna go to. =D

THE DRAMA! haha. damn cool.. i'd watch it again if i had the chance.

after the drama, went to eat with my fellow sec 3 sastera students. went to this restaurant called warong something holland.. wow. ahah. haziq, khai and I shared a medium-sized murtabak pizza. when we got our food, we started crapping on how 'good' it was. damn hilarious.. haha. nvm. choices have consequences. and lesson learnt: never eat at that eatery ever again. lol. no offence man..

after eating, everyone went home. yea. lol. erm, haha. it was almost 11. and i didn't want to take the mrt. so i took 106 instead with syafiqah.. during the journey, i was frequently looking out the window and the thing was i didnt recognize any of the places we were passing..

but SOMEONE assured that we were going the right way.. so yea. relax ah ridzwan. then, i suddenly panicked when i saw "TANGLIN". i was thinking , "wth, are we in the town area or something? so... after much deliberation with my dear syafiqah, i decided to ask the bus driver where the bus was heading to. the answer? MARINA BAY!!! haha. omg.. it was definitely the wrong time to get lost lah.. by then it was 11 20 i think..

great.. lost in orchard road with a girl.. to tell u the truth, i've only been to orchard road thrice. yea. haha. so we walked and walked and walked.. rofl..

FORTUNATELY, we found a bus stop that had buses going to bukit batok interchange. it was already 11 50. lol.

so yea.. lucky the buses were still in service at that time...

when syafiqah had to alight i was kinda sad? haha. cuz honestly i was having fun getting lost with her. haha. and hey, i didn't get us lost purposely hor. lol.

so yea...... that's all. =D

CAMP WAS A BLAST!!!

I regret saying it was gonna be a gay camp..
it definitely proved me wrong lah.
it's by far the toughest camp i've gone through.
and also the most enriching and enjoyable one i've attended.
i never thought a camp and bunch of adults could have such a significant impact on me.
despite the fact that the sleeping area and toilets were not to our liking, at least the camp had them.
the camp has taught us to appreciate the simple things in life. really...

ok. get this, why is it so hard to say i love you to ur parents and siblings when it is so easy to say it to ur boyfriend or girlfriend? it never really struck me ah but when one of the enciks asked the question i was thinking, "eh ya hah."

it's so obivous and yet i didn't realize it. now, i still don't dare to say ILY to my family but i'm TRYing to show that i do love them instead by being a good son and brother.. haha.

ok.. the advance live operations.. omg. IT MADE ME CRY. ok. here's how it went down. the selected bunch from the whole sec 3 level were asked to write our goals in life on a piece of paper.. then, we were made to hold the piece of paper with our arms parallel to the ground and stare at our goals for 55 mins. while we were doing that, songs about life and stuff played in the background. and... the platoon mentors were like distractions. they taunted us, crumpled our goals... and some of the enciks were giving some words of encouragement. my first thought was when it just started was, "walao, so drama mama sia this thing" haha. but as minutes passed, i arms were already starting to shake.. i was having troubles holding up the paper.

then, at one point after a PM had disturbed me, i cried. wth.. i was TRYing so hard not to cry but the tears kept flowing out. i also thought that i was the only one that was crying. but after everything was over, i was actually glad that i cried. i bet most of us felt that way ah.. lol. hafiz macho ah tak nangis.

3rd day! sedih... we had to leave the camp and our beloved PMs. PM Arvin/Froggy! he's the best PM to me ah. he told me to organize lunch someday for platoon Froggy. so froggies, want anot? haha. oh forgot. i got best trooper for platoon 8!!! and.. a free ID tag! haha.

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froggy!
one platoon!
bpians!

this post is gonna be a bit crude..

i was feeling kinda fucked up in school cuz i failed physics and combined humanities..
and.. i was kinda told off cuz i was playing truth or dare with the guys during free period instead of thinking about the cheering competition.. whatever ah. i can't blame anyone and i don't want to. i guess i should've set my priorities right. afterall, i was appointed as a cheerleader for the class.

i thought my emo shit was gone after the NCC interview cuz i actually enjoyed it when at first i wasn's really looking forward to it. but when i came home, it all came back to me. even after doing my prayers...

hey carlyna, really sorry. i shouldnt have gotten my feelings get the best of me..

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confessed something during the interview.. = l

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yay.. finally.

Mr Jamil retired today.. he sang, gave a speech, sang again and finished his speech. hope he has a happy re-tyre-ment. lol.

ok got back some of our papers. not really satisfied with my results.

Sastera - B3
English - B3
A Math - C6
Social Studies - D7

i'm especially disappointed with my A Math result lah. but considering it's only mid-year exams, there's no use in being disappointed lah. must improve. BUT... it depends if i'm gonna do anything about it. haha. well, i hope i won't delay on trying to improve. i'll start when the june holidays does.. i hope. cannot promise. lol.

hmm,, i'm currently addicted to Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me. i watched the music video on syafiq's blog. damn sweet and romantic ah! haha. buzz off if u think it's gay for a guy to think that way.. ok. back to the video. taylor swift looks really sweet and pretty in the vid. =D haha.

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cheer up ridzwan (pats myself on the back)

kinda true huh?
ok. so today, i went cycling. cycled to harbourfront then to chinatown area. then, from redhill to holland road. from then on, followed the 106 bus service route and home... yea. my butt was sore just now. lol. oh ya, i almost got hit by a car. heng ah.. and a Mat Saleh who was with his children smiled at me and i smiled back.. see, i'm a good singaporean. haha.

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all hope lost..

wahahahahaha! i got the bendahara part in the school play. baik ke pe? on top of that, the supposed reason for me getting the part is cuz i have an evil face.. hahaha. sad sia! lol. i'm not a single bit evil lah. or am i? haha.

oh ya, the Jeritan Sepi guy was there. i bet some of the girls were secretly crazy over him.. lol. yea. that's about it...

oh ya. i can't wait to get my own guitar.. honestly, i don't really care about the quality ah. as long as i start learning how to play it as soon as possible, i'll be happy already. guitars are cool.. lol.

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cold turkey...

I'll just post this one..

i did three drawings just now.. maybe i'll post them 2mrw morning.

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absence makes the heart grow fonder..

YESSAH!!!! EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

i'm so relieved its finally over lah.. i actually didn't care if i won't do well for physics today. all i wanted was for the exams to be over and done with. there was a moment during the paper that i felt indifferent if i didn't finish the paper. fuyoh. haha.

took our class photo today. i hope it'll turn out great..

after that, played soccer at lam soon. scored a goal only.. =( better luck next time. lol. man, i can't wait for the june holidays..

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Shaking in waiting for something more...

An excerpt from Hikayat Mat Jenin..

"Hello..." akhirnya panggilanku bersambut.
"Boleh saya bercakap dengan Raja Nor Mustaqimah?"
Aku berasa suaraku bergetar.
"Sedang bercakap sekarang. Siapa di sana?"
"Saya... saya, Mat Jenin."
"Oh, Encik Mat Jenin! Ada hal penting ke telefon tengah-tengah malam begini?"
"Ya, ya... penting."
"Cakaplah."
"Hmmm... Hmmm...."
"Kenapa, encik?"
"Sa... saya...."
"Eh! Kenapa ni?"
"Hmmm... saya... saya cintakan awak."
"Ha?"
"Kita... kita kahwin! Mahu?"
"Ha?"

Sorry it's in Malay... if u do find out what it means, u will laugh, well maybe. haha. but one thing's for sure is it did make me laugh.. haha. there's another part of short story that seems cute to me. =D
lol. ok. gtg. needa study for malay lit.. bye babes. haha.

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Another Day....

haha. i know. celebrated it a little bit too early. who cares. anyway, my sis and I went to buy the cake just now.. after buying the cake, went to Norlela's house. she's my sister's friend. and my long-time-no-contact friend. we last spoke about 4 years ago. haha. so, we watched horror movies... =D the first one was about a school. skipped it cuz there was a missing part. we were watching it on lela's laptop in the dark.. lol. so we watched The House instead. scary giler. and sad too. after the movie, went home and surprised my mom! she was so paiseh ah. haha. i'm glad my sis thought of buying a cake for my mom cuz we rarely celebrate anything in my family. =P
the cake, as you can see, was delicious but i think i ate a bit too much. now i feel bloated... lol.
so yea... HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY in half an hour's time. haha.

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too much of a good thing can be a bad thing.

after friday prayers and going back home, I went to beach road to buy ncc badges today. i think i'll be going back there some other time to buy clothes. lol. so after buying the badges, we went to eat at the hawker centre. yea. nth really interesting happened..

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heartaches, heartaches..

i was pretty bummed when i went home today.. = [
hmm.. i think i'm gonna flunk MYE.. yay.. -_-

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it's raining raining.. ooo baby it's raining.

so today, after friday prayers, i went to BBECC. had planned to study with syafiqah. but i ended up 'studying' alone cuz she couldnt make it. i didn't really study lah. it took me around one and half hour to finish reading a whole chapter of social studies. couldnt concentrate cuz i kept thinking about other stuff while listening to music.

yesterday... my school's malay cultural society went to west coast park to celebrate our achievements. first up was the 'giving out' of certificates. it was for pretend only. our names aren't written on the certs yet. haha. we started of with games. boys played soccer, girls played something. lol. then we took a break and ate! there was chocolate eclair. really nice. after eating, we continued playing our games. yea.. then we went home.

PICTURES

Cikgu Sazali...

Hazim, representative for the back-stage crew.

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I should've and I promise