Monday 28 December 2009

I scraped my knees when I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven, seems like
It's getting harder to believe in anything
And just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off

In all my spite
In all my spite
I'll turn it off

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

The tragedy, it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero

Well I can see behind the curtain (I can see, yeah yeah)
The wheels are cranking, turning, so on the way we're working
Towards a goal, that's not existent
It's not existent, but we just keep believing

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off

In all my spite
In all my spite
I'll turn it off

Just turn it off
Again
Again

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

Turn It Off - Paramore

Saturday 26 December 2009


YEAH!!! so much about kiasu-ness.. haha. now i have to wait for more than two months for the concert. on top of that, i have to make sure i don't lose the ticket. man, the wait is just gonna be worthwhile.. lml PARAMORE!!! lml

thanks dad..

Thursday 24 December 2009

They're coming to Singapore for a concert on 7th March 2010. Atiqah's going with her cousin and her cousin's friends. Lak Jin's going with his friend. Who else is going? I asked my mum already. She let me go. But I'm not sure if I wanna go. Having second thoughts about it. I wonder if she's going. Haiya.. i just hope i find someone to tag along with.

Saturday 19 December 2009

had ncc bbq yesterday. not many came. it was okay. i liked listening to Sir Yus' stories. damn funny. reached home around 12 30am. today, just stayed home all day. okay lah. i could keep myself entertained. there were a few shows on okto like Arthur and Bindi The Jungle Girl.
and i finally got a chorus for the song. half way through? i have the second verse and the second pre-chorus already. maybe i can finish it tonight. haha. we'll see. =D

Wednesday 16 December 2009

*i've uploaded this drawing before.

Happy 5th monthsary iqah. too bad you can't go out today.
1st monthsary, we studied for common test 2.
2nd monthsary, we broke fast at kfc.
3rd monthsary, i made you drink milk. haha.
4th monthsary, i taught you and myra how to play the guitar. met your sis and cousins too.
5th monthsary? i guess this would be a first for us. nvm. there'll be other days to meet up. i hope it's as soon as possible lah.. haha.

Tuesday 15 December 2009

haha.. i feel so beloh. all along i thought ncc camp starts tomorrow when in actual fact it starts on thursday. lol. so i'm free tomorrow!!! woots!!! tomorrow!!! haha. siao.. maybe should go for ice-cream tomorrow night. how iqah? your parents would allow tak?

Monday 14 December 2009


that's amirah emo-ing looking at the scenery.
anyway, went for gamelan outing to pahlawan beach today.
one word. AWESOME. haha. i especially liked the games we played.
filled with loads of fun and laughter. oh, and i'm super sorry to safwanah,
farhanah and suhaina for accidentally hurting them during the games.
i think i hurt more people though. oops. haha.

i so badly wanted to fully go into the water man!! but my mum didn't let me swim.
=( the thing is i can't swim! haha. can just go inside. i actually had the chance to you know.
but thing's just didnt go my way or our way i should say cuz iqah also wanted to play
in the water longer. cuz everyone was getting ready to go wash up and stuff. yea. nvm lor.
random thought. the sec 2 dudes are just fun to hang out with. they're hilarious. really.

in the train ride home, the totally-random-with-open-topic conversation was interesting
and plain funny.

and.. iqah! i totally thought you weren't coming you know. i'm glad you could.. hehe.
yup. that's it. today was A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

Friday 11 December 2009






photos of west coast reservoir. i kinda found it while idly cycling I DON'T KNOW WHERE. haha. actually, i had planned to cycle to harbour front but i was sick of cycling towards there although it's been I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG SINCE I'VE CYCLED TOWARDS THERE. so i U-turned followed a new route i passed west coast park. cycle cylcle cycle found the reservoir. then, i reached this teban gardens place. it took me a while before i got out of that place and find out where i actually was. at one point of time, i actually thought if i was in the twilight zone. haha.

then otw home, i suddenly had a craving for chocolate waffles!! then i remembered there was this shop that hafiz introduced to me which sold yummy waffles. so i went there i bought one. =D
after that, i met nuurainy and co. lol. when i saw them, i instantly said, "WTF!" my hair lah. it looked like wolverine's.. before going off from home, i actually used hairspray to keep my hair down. i guess it didnt work. haha.

here's a cycling tip. if you don't want to bother about your hair while cycling, wear a hat or a helmet. saves you a lot of trouble and embarrassment maybe. haha. yea that's was my day. just went cycling. oh oh. did you know Singapore has a Japanese Secondary School? there were actually a lot of the students having baseball training when i passed that school.. they looked so japanese.. yea. that didn't make sense. anw, bye. haha.

Wednesday 9 December 2009

went out for a while just now. met WET RAZI at the mrt station to lend him my guitar tuner.. fahri and amalina were there too. after that, i bought mentos from 7 11 and kerepek ubi from the mama shop near my house.. haiz.. no life. haha. met my neighbourhood friends? yea.. fadhil!! haha. he changed a lot liao. hmm.. i remember him as a crybaby cuz last time when i used to always play downstairs with them, he often tends to get angry over small things. like he got PMS like that. hahaha.. but now... his voice break liao. i guess he's more mature. i hope he is. haha. and he took his PSLE liao. he probably wants to go to swiss cottage. yea..

man.. i kinda miss those days. i miss primary school times.. oh oh.. the other time, i was chatting with firnaz on facebook. guess what. he told me he misses me. awww.. haha. among other things lah. it felt kinda awkward but it was sweet. lol. he misses everyone in singapore. the thing is he's in india and most probably won't be coming back to singapore until he's an adult lah. sad man..

i suddenly remember playing soccer, badminton, cricket, catching, police and thief, blind mice and iceman with karthik g, firnaz, m karthik and everyone else.. it was super fun. i also remember the old man that would complain abt calling the police when we played police and thief. hahahhaha! man.. the good ol' days..

haha.. suddenly so sentimental.. contemplating abt the past.. ok... moving on.. this friday got ymc session but got ncc training for part Bs also.. then this saturday got bbq!! afiqah's birthday.. at changi.. yea. that's all. enough crapping. bye.

one more thing.. i wonder how she's doing at the bbq. hope she's having fun.

kay bye for real.

Monday 7 December 2009

short post!! erm, i bumped into iqah's dad and shazwani on the way home from lot 1.. haha.. shaz emo sia.. never say goodbye.. nevermind. haha. hmm.. i think i lost my soccer skills liao. it took me A LOT of attempts to score a single goal during the game after ncc meeting.. dammit. lol. AND.. i definitely have to/must/should start on holiday homework and revise for common test. common test is on the second week of school next year.. what a bummer. i can't screw things up anymore. MUST BUCK UP.. ok. this post quite long huh? haha. i'll end here. bye!

Sunday 6 December 2009


hey, just felt like posting. had our gamelan performance yesterday.. just played one song though we kinda practiced 2 songs. but nvm, like hafiz hashim said at least we didn't screw up. met my primary school junior too.. one word. AWKWARD. haha. she's not the same Suri i knew then. oh well.. ppl change. she was actually modeling for the event. and she waved like a pageant queen when we were leaving the place. haha. the event was a wedding in actual fact. i thought it was some malay appreciation thing though there was gamelan, malay dance, silat and stuff..

yea.. hmm.. yesterday was just awesome. i don't mind re-living yesterday again. haha.

oh yea. after sending her home, i saw her sister, kak nazia. i don't know whether she saw me or not lah. wanted to say hi but i didn't. haha. heck care lah.
and! i sent her a text around 1am this morning but i don't think she received it. sad. lol. nvm..

have ncc meeting 2mrw abt the upcoming camp.. boo!

erm, please bear with the picture below. don't mind ah. haha.

*edited*

photo brought down due to ?embarrassment?
haha. and.. the wedding for fake.. lol.

Tuesday 1 December 2009

before alighting at bedok for ymc in the afternoon, a girl fainted in the mrt.
the way she fell was pretty rough i would say.
there was an old lady right in front of her.
so when she fell, her psp dropped to the floor.
the old lady was stunned and she was calling out, "hey! hey! eh! eh!"
her head kinda hanged on the old lady's arms for a second or two.
only then did she lie on the floor for a good five seconds.
she stood up with some help after her friends woke her up.
the girl must've been super embarrassed lah.
practically the whole cabin was looking at her.
pity her. i think she didnt eat breakfast of something.

oh yea, last night my dream was quite strange.
i was in school. but the school looked different and bigger.
i think there was a sports event. a big one.
i remember carrying a vacuum cleaner around. lol.
i was helping out i guess?
then then, i was in this corridor.
it was crowded.
then, i saw her.
she was zipping here and there.
so at one point i stopped her?
i said something. forgot what.
that's all i remember.
wait. there's one more thing.
i remember being disappointed in the dream.
i could recall more when i woke up lah. but right now forgot liao.

do check out the vid at the bottom.. =D
woots!! posting at this time.. lol.
so yesterday, on monday, had gamelan..
purposely came late.
guess who i met in the bus. her!!
haha. it happened like this lah.
was gonna alight. so i tapped my card.
then i heard someone tap too. at the other door.
naturally, i turned to look.
surprisingly, it was the person i wanted to see so much.
so happy.. haha.
gamelan was fun i guess. i played the gendang.
yea.. bla bla bla
went lot one ate at kfc and went to the library.
unfortunately, she lost her wallet there. so sad..
but what to do? we just couldnt find it.
wonder how naggy her mom was when she told her.
i think she tell already lah.
so we met myra.
teach her how to play guitar.
she's doing pretty well. fast learner.
yea. then went home lor.
but i was sad and gloomy otw home! didn't spend more time with her. but nvm lah.
haha. i walked idly lah.. super slow.
i actually took my time and didnt care abt wasting time. lol.
so walk walk walk to interchange, top up card, walk to bus stop then decided to walk home.
first time! well, actually, not first time lah. just first time alone. haha. at night.
thought abt things. actually, at one point of time while walking, i thought,
"walk slowly, who's know i'll bump into some ppl."
in the end, i met my grandaunt at the nearby mama shop. lmao.
i actually accidentally called her cik then she corrected me.
then otw up the stairs, i bumped into my old neighbourhood and ngaji friends. dalris and taufiq.
they were lingering at the lift. so i asked if the lift was stuck. yea it was. no wonder nth happened when i pressed for the lift. a few girls were stuck in the lift.
then then, taufiq asked me how come i dont come down to play anymore.
i didnt really answer lah. then dalris thought that i was in sec 4. well. technically, not yet.
then he actually asked, "hey, you NA or NT?"
LIKE WTH! so bad. didnt even ask if i was express.
so yeah. of course i clarified lah. dalris express also.
dammit. i felt quite insulted lah. haha. maybe it's cuz of the way i look. gah. who knows.
yea check out this vid.. kay i go sleep liao. got ymc later. i'll see if i wanna go..