Atrophic Pretenses

New Sound

2011-05-02T22:41:00.002+08:00

I stumbled upon two bands while tumblr-ing; The Cab and This Condition.

The Cab - Vegas Skies

This Condition - She Loves Me

Way To Go

2011-04-25T21:50:00.004+08:00

Just when I thought things were gonna get better. Guess I was wrong. I just feel so pissed. It doesn't feel good at all when your heart aches. I want it to go away. But it isn't that simple. Damn. To think it's only the first day of the week. And school just started. What a bad start. Way to go Ridzwan.

Lately

2011-04-24T20:28:00.003+08:00

I've been waking up everyday feeling like I've just cried the whole night. My eyes would feel swollen, I'd feel like not giving a damn about any plans I have that day. It's just terrible. Just this morning when I woke up, my first thought was, " I'm freaking tired. " I hope it'll be better tomorrow morning.

On another note, writing in a diary is kinda depressing for me. For the most part, when I'm down and I write about it, I'd feel worse. And yea, you're probably thinking, " Dude, you mad? Isn't blogging the same? " About that; At least, when I blog, other people can read it. Actually, the main reason is so that I can get a certain message to a certain someone.

And to that certain someone, I'm hope you're doing fine. If you're not, please be okay.

Awkwardness

2011-04-19T20:27:00.003+08:00

You know that awkward feeling when you don't know what to say to your new-found friends and you just stand around pretending that it isn't awkward? Obviously, it's normal to feel that way. Just give us a few weeks and I'm sure we can get along fine. Oh yea. I met a few 'long-time-no-see' friends today. I met Jinghui, Lin Htoo, Saklani and Wei En. I kinda miss secondary school life already. Man, I can't wait for orientation to end and for school to officially start.

Thinking of You

2011-04-18T22:53:00.003+08:00

I have no idea how I'm gonna get through the 3 months without you. Well, yea. I know it's not like I won't be seeing you at all. But it just won't be the same. Even so, I'll try.

2011-03-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

Nasi ayam
Brownie
Cream Cheese Bun
Bukit Batok Nature Park
Perky butts
2012
Getting married
Children
Future
Cheap Specs
3 months
Us

I want to make you believe in happy endings.

Let's work towards it together. :)

A Day To Remember

2011-03-14T17:20:00.003+08:00

I was really happy yesterday. I got to spend the whole day with Iqah. Oh! I have to say she looked pretty in the white dress. We went on an unplanned hike from the Forest Walk all the way to Vivocity. Well, I thought it was gonna be a simple walk but it turned out to be full of steep roads and trails. I actually felt sorry for Iqah cuz her feet were in pain. At least we had fun. Right Iqah? Say yes. :) Then after that, we went to Pahlawan Beach! Lying down in the sand under the sun beside the coconut tree, eating Hot & Spicy potato chips, talking, cam-whoring, joking and laughing.. Memorable.

Macbook

2011-03-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

Man.. I'm not sure my dad can help me get it tmr. So, I guess the plan for tmr is to check out the exhibition at NP and try to get the Macbook by Hire Purchase. If not, got to apply for the interest-free loan or rental scheme or, get it at a cheaper price somewhere else.

Gah! I want one to call my own! Hmm.. Maybe I shouldn't be too picky. Anyway, I need it for school. As long as I get one before the first semester starts.

Teenage(r's) Dream(s)

2011-03-10T09:56:00.004+08:00

4 nights in a row. I wonder why. Maybe it can happen for a week. Who knows.

******

Nah.. Make that five times. Five times in 96 hours. Lucky me.

******

Okay. It's the 11th today. Guess what. It's been 5 nights in a row. Awesome. Lol. So in total, six times in 120 hours. Whoa.

Enrollment Package

2011-03-05T12:15:00.003+08:00

Where are you? It seems like everyone else got it except me. Why? Why make me wine like a swine? It sucks opening the mail and not seeing anything inside. If I get it though on Monday hopefully, I'll be the happiest guy on that day. If I don't get it, I'll have to give NP a call then. So troublesome.

Down

2011-03-03T23:28:00.003+08:00

I think it's hardest for me to be miserable cuz every time I'm down. It feels like I can't really tell anybody. And every single time, I wanna cry. But I can't. I wanna feel really vulnerable. But again, I can't. Everything is just pent up, bottled up, right in my chest. Honestly, it hurts. I hate the feeling. I mean, who doesn't? It's so hard to get rid of. It just seems like there's no way, no solution. Then again, you might think (that's if anyones reading this) I'm just being a drama queen or I'm being too emotional. Maybe I am. Actually, I hate the fact that I'm a tad too sensitive. At times, I tend to react way too negatively towards what people say or do that might hurt me or the ones I care for. Maybe it's the way I am, the way I was brought up. I don't know. I can't just stop being too sensitive, can I? Trust me, if there was a way, I would totally go for it. Cuz my over-sensitive attitude sometimes hurt others too, even though I don't mean to. And it upsets me further that I unintentionally hurt someone that's trying to help lessen my emotional strain. Even when someone tries to console me, I'd want to be even sadder. Is that weird? I think it is. I am weird. Actually, I think no one truly knows who I am and the things I've done except God. Sometimes I wish I'm not the way I am. I wish I could go back in time and correct my mistakes so I wouldn't end up this way. But what's the use? I might just screw it up all over again. In conclusion, I've no idea why I did this. Maybe I thought I'd feel better if I did. Well, I do. Just a bit. Not so much. It's just a random emo rant by a typical teenage boy. Maybe I'm having mood swings. I don't know. I don't care what the reason is. I just feel down. And I don't really expect anyone to care. Wait. Maybe I do. I don't know. Whatever. I'll feel better after a good night sleep.

Blogspot's Dead

2011-02-24T21:05:00.003+08:00

It seems like no one uses blogspot anymore. Well, my sister's still active but there used to be more people actively blogging. It's probably due to facebook and tumblr or the fact that they don't find the need to post on blogspot. I'm proud to admit I'm using tumblr. Guilty as charged. :D The above are some of the things I've re-blogged or posted.

If you're reading this, well guess what, you're one of a few that goes to my blog or you're just a plain stalker. Just kidding. Well, fact is I won't be posting on here much. Most of the time, the posts would be random and have long intervals between them. Moral of the story is, if you're still following this blog of mine, you'd have to have patience for the post or stop following. Ciao.

2011-02-09T00:24:00.003+08:00

Well, this is a little update. I initially wanted to cycle to Marina Barrage but I couldn't figure out how to. So I settled with Marina Bay. It was exhausting. My palms were all red from grabbing at the handles for too long. By the way, I like my RayBan sunglasses

I'm not sure whether I'm going out tomorrow. Supposedly, I'm meeting Iqah. She wants to go rollerblading at Bukit Batok Nature Park? Haha. Yea. But no news yet from her. TEXT ME SOON IQAH! I've no idea if she's gonna read this. Haha. Wait. Are there any other visitors to my blog? Seriously. Cuz it feels like my girlfriend's the only visitor. Do leave a tag yea? Ciao.

Release of O level Results 2010

2011-01-10T21:16:00.002+08:00

Mr Chua: Too many A2s

Ridz: *thinks*"So did I do well or not?"

Well, disappointments first. I got an A2 for Emath, and a C5 for Malay Lit. I was aiming for an A1 for Emath but I didn't get it. I wanted at least an A2 for Malay Lit. But hey, I did better than I expected for English. A2 :D. And I was so elated that I received the same grade for A-freaking-math. Haha.

Oh yea. I was totally broke after eating at Delifrance with the guys after receiving our results. One last thing. Gotta congratulate BPGHS Batch 2010 for bringing the school back up to Band 1. I'm so proud. ^_^

First Youth Alive Lesson

2011-01-09T15:45:00.003+08:00

I was on my way to Al-Mukminin Mosque, expecting to be in a normal classroom with normal classroom tables and chairs with plain white walls. Well, guess what. I was the only student who knew about the lesson this morning. On top of that, I was sitting on a tiny yellow plastic chair with my long legs tucked under a turquoise table. I was surrounded by a myriad of colours. Then, there was a baby pink slide in one corner, 'protected' by a 2D fort pasted on the same corner. There was a bright red unicorn/donkey staring at me with its round eyes, laughing at the situation I was in.

But, on the whole, the lesson was fruitful I would say. In addition, I was released early. I'm really hoping more people would come for the lesson next week. That way, we can have group discussions. If not, it'll be a tiny bit awkward for the Uztazah and I. Do come people! :D

Different

2011-01-05T00:37:00.005+08:00

While many were dragging their still-in-holiday-mood bodies to school early in the morning, I took my time before going over to Imran's house for a day of video games. I had fun. It's nice to know we don't have to worry about homework, what books to bring and waking up early!

Oh! Guess what. My Internet's back! Despite my ecstatic state upon realizing my Internet connection was back from the dead, I quickly found out that I don't do much surfing. Which then, results in me getting utterly bored. Okay. Exaggeration much? Hmm.. Usually, it's just Facebook, blogging, a bit of Youtube and that's it.

So.. in turn, my boredom led to me creating a Formspring account! You're able to ask me anything on my profile and I'll try my best to answer appropriately. So far.. No one has asked me anything!

Haha. A day in life.

Ask me anything :D http://www.formspring.me/Ridzthewheez

Malang, Indonesia

2010-12-28T18:55:00.004+08:00

One of the best experiences I've ever had. Memorable indeed.

Update

2010-10-29T19:46:00.003+08:00

Sad. The computer at home is practically screwed. At first it was the Net. Haha. Now, I'm at the neighbourhood Internet cafe. Tsk. Come on Os. End faster!

What Is Wrong With Me?

2010-10-18T12:38:00.002+08:00

Tumblr looks cool.. Then why the hell am I still on blogger? Tsk.. Who cares anyway. Damn, I should be studying. A week left to the start of Os. Someone smack some sense into me.

Tsk..

2010-10-17T20:31:00.002+08:00

My tummy hurt quite a bit just now.. Every time I cough, sneeze, or blow my nose, I'll just aggravate the pain. Bummer. Btw, yesterday was our 15th monthsary :D Oh yea.. 8 more days to Os. Great.

Colours of the Rainbow

2010-09-25T23:50:00.005+08:00

Sec 4 Hari Raya outing. On the whole, it was okay. I had fun. Even made a 911 video at Imran's. Lol. But thing is I was kinda moody halfway. Which sucked. I tried to cheer up. Believe me.. But truth is, I can't totally be happy without you.

14th monthsary

2010-09-16T23:40:00.004+08:00

After Os, let's waste our afternoons together for 'group study sessions' like we often did in sec 3.

Glad you liked the song :D

Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2010-09-10T08:56:00.003+08:00

Well, today's the day. The day for forgiveness and to celebrate a month of fasting. It's also the day for good food! Gonna eat my mum's dishes later. Yes! Then, I think after Friday prayers, off to my uncle's house. My grandma's over there. I'm sure there's good food there too. :D

Speaking of good food, I tried dendeng last night, or this morning. Quite yummy. Went home around half pass two in the morning from Geylang. Luckily, my parents didn't scold me. Awesomeness. Haha. Anyway, gotta thank Cik Nori and Iqah for yesterday. Cik Nori even offered to buy me a baju kurung. Wah. Haha. I politely declined his kind offer bah. I mean, a baju kurung. Wah. Haha.

Oh.. Spotted a few ppl there. I think first was Iqah's guides senior. My senior also lah. Then, HALIDAH! Haha. I literally shouted her name when she jumped in front of me. Haha. Farnie. After that, I saw Farah Diyannah at a carpet auction. Then, Aliff Samad, primary school junior. He remembers me sia. Lol. After midnight, saw Aisyah from YMC. Yea. That's about it.

I enjoyed last night a lot especially since it was with Iqah. And.. thank god it's you too :)

Geylang, Sipaku Geylang

2010-09-08T05:53:00.003+08:00

I haven't been to Geylang for a very long time. The last time I went there was with my family. Last minute baju kurung sale was on. Lol. But since I'm not getting one this year, I don't think I'll be going there and be able to experience Geylang for this year's Ramadhan. I guess I don't mind much lah. But I do miss the noisy atmosphere and aroma of Ramlee Burger everywhere. Which reminds me! I haven't eaten Ramlee Burger in a long time! I've been eating Mcspicy Burgers recently but I don't know. I think Ramlee Burgers beat McDonalds' hands down. Any kind soul willing to buy me one? For free? Haha. Fat hope. Like that's gonna happen. Anyway, people rarely or almost never blog nowadays. So since the number of readers on my blog everyday is probably equals to zero, that means I won't be getting my Ramlee Burger. FML.

4 more days to Syawal

2010-09-06T01:14:00.001+08:00

Not buying a new one this year. Looks like I'll be wearing green again maybe? We'll see.

There

2010-09-05T00:34:00.001+08:00

Well, the new song's completed. Yea. Is it my third one? Yea. Probably.

2010-09-04T10:28:00.000+08:00

Chemistry C6

Another Day

2010-09-02T21:15:00.002+08:00

Paramore's gonna play in Kuala Lumpur on October 19th! Dang, I wonder if they're coming to Singapore again. Would really love to go for their concert again but one thing would be holding me back.

O FREAKING LEVELS!!!

A day in the life of a Singapore student. :(

Malay Literature A1

Combined Humanities B3

Higher Malay B3

Physics C5

But hey, on the bright side, my L1R5 could possibly be below 20! Alhamdulillah!

Staying Strong; Hopefully

2010-08-30T18:51:00.001+08:00

English B3

Emath B4

Amath C5

Turn It Off

2010-08-23T17:38:00.003+08:00

I almost forgot how much I love listening to them. I guess listening to Turn It Off repeatedly kinda makes me feel better. I'm just hoping this heavy feeling in my chest goes away asap.

- Maybe if my heart stops beating, it won't hurt this much.

Till then

2010-08-22T07:25:00.002+08:00

Wishing you had your chin just above my shoulder. Then, you would just be a kiss away. But till then, I'll just keep on wishing.

Can't Tell Dreams From Reality

2010-08-21T05:22:00.003+08:00

After so long of having repeated nightmares of being chased by a Pontianak, she finally caught up with me. It went like this. It was raining. My living room lights were switched off. I saw a human-like shadow floating outside the window. I have no idea why I did what I did next. I opened the door. She was pushing the door trying to get in. I resisted. But then, I gave up. I picked up the broom made out of sticks, opened the door wide and jabbed at her face. The sticks actually went into her eyes. She was screaming but she kept coming closer, making the sticks go deeper into her head; just to get to me. But then, I woke up. It was too scary man. Like HOLY..

O level English Examination

2010-08-19T19:10:00.001+08:00

Totally screwed it. Damn. Hope this is my wake up call.

Sixth Day of Fasting

2010-08-16T14:11:00.004+08:00

I kinda liked today.. Hmm maybe cuz I was more sociable? Haha. Anyway, Had Amath and History papers today. Both manageable. I wanna pass this 2 subjects so badly man. Emath paper tmr. Not planning to study much for it. Just gonna go through standard deviation, mean median stuff later. Yea...... Gonna eat chicken right with Iqah later for break fast. Woots!

Oh yes! I didn't forget my dear. Happy 13th monthsary!

First Day of Fasting

2010-08-11T19:54:00.003+08:00

It was okay? Nothing much happened I guess. Well, I broke my fast alone at home. That's all. This happened during social studies.

Me: *Asking Bryan something*
Ms Rashidah: Yes Bryan? Why are you asking him? Is he going to mark your paper?
Me: *Shakes head*
Ms Rashidah: So?
Me: I was asking about cross-referencing. Like if we cross-refer right.. Erm, I forgot my question.

Haha. Blur me. XD Oh yes, I realized today. 5 more days. And I want satay!

Lost and not found

2010-07-31T07:41:00.000+08:00

The necklace I gave Syafiqah.. Gone. Could it be in the General Office? Hmm.. Maybe someone's keeping it for himself or herself.. At this point, I guess we'll never know. Gah.. sad. You need a miracle to get back something you've lost.

2010-07-28T17:16:00.001+08:00

The Maine's new album, Black & White.

"Don't Stop Now"
"Right Girl"
"Growing Up"
"Fuel To The Fire"
"Inside Of You"
"Every Road"
"Listen To Your Heart"
"Saving Grace"
"Give It To Me"
"Color"

2010-07-25T00:26:00.001+08:00

Blackbox @ YISS was awesome but after that was better :)

2010-07-21T19:13:00.003+08:00

Dear blog, today my girlfriend slapped me cuz I dared her too. FML. Haha. Asking for trouble. *shakes head like no mother*

And IT was weird to me! Lol. Shall do a better job next time. LOL. Bye.

Yes mom, I'm totally in love

2010-07-18T01:46:00.004+08:00

Kissing Spree?

2010-07-17T23:52:00.002+08:00

I really didn't realize I was that high. Anyway, Iqah said the three little words during the movie The Blood Pledge, "Need to pee!" Just kidding! Haha. She said ILY. Hehe. Though the way she said it wasn't the sweetest, at least I heard it from her right? Didn't wanna hear it from anyone else. :D

So glad we went out today. Felt closer to you than ever. Saranghaeyou!

2010-07-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st Anniversary Iqah!

Yea.. Our relationship has been one heck of a roller coaster ride of emotions. There have been it's ups and downs. Even so, I don't mind going through it all with you. And I wouldn't want to weather it all with anyone else except you. Yea. You. :)

- I really love you too.

2010-07-15T06:03:00.000+08:00

Holy mother..

2010-07-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

Just a random update

2010-07-10T06:25:00.004+08:00

Hey, I haven't been updating much. Probably cuz I don't use the com as much as usual. So yea.. I've been busy.. With schoolwork obviously. There's timed practices, night study sessions.. I was especially erm, what's the word? Enlightened? Cuz I could understand thermal physics and electromagnetic induction pretty well. I could even explain to my friends about a few stuff and they understood. So yea.. Yay me.

Iqah and I made a pact. We would only meet up on weekends. Guess what. It's killing me! Gosh.. And to add to that, she's fasting.. So, well, you know. Can't be as close and stuff. And I don't know if she's fasting on the weekends too.

Also, I think her prepaid's used up. That mean's.. NO TEXTING. GAH. I thought we made a deal to at least text each other every night even if it's for awhile. Sigh. Oh oh, I wanted to send her home last night after night study but she probably went off before I did. Sad.

So this is how it's like when a major national exam is nearing for a teenage couple like us.. Sorry. Not much of an update huh? More like lamenting about my current situation.

2010-06-25T11:26:00.005+08:00

Have you ever had the feeling when there's an aching in your chest? So much so it hurts? You feel like screaming but don't want people to notice. So screaming into a pillow would only suffice. And there's one person that lingers in your mind regardless of what you're doing. His or her presence.. That's all you're wishing for.. Longing for.. Yearning for.. The thought of that someone in particular makes you sigh every single time you realize he or she isn't by your side. And that's what you terribly want. And only that will make you genuinely happy.

Well, if you are, you're heads over heels in love..

I would hug you if..

2010-06-20T10:38:00.003+08:00

I guess today's gonna be quite mundane.. Probably gonna be home the whole day. If by some awesome miracle that needs me to be out of the house, then lucky me. But I don't think luck's on my side today.

Yesterday's Gentarasa was.. okay. I can't think of a better word really. Though I expected more from it lah. Wanted to see Iqah perform :( Too bad. Went straight home after the whole show. It was kinda awkward cuz I had this bugging feeling that there had to be something that I could do instead of going home. Hmm.. Probably not used to going home early.

Yeap.. 8 more days to the 2nd semester.

2010-06-16T23:54:00.004+08:00

Happy 11th to us! Today was especially delightful. Summary of today: Just the two of us from Dhoby Ghaut to Fort Canning Park to Civil Defence Heritage Gallery to late lunch at Funan mall to Esplanade to the Asian Civilisations Museum which was a hell lot of fun then a short stroll along the Singapore River and then a bus ride to Jurong East.

After that, headed for Bukit Batok where we bought Chicken rice, 50 cents worth of Pedal and a bottle of coke and ate dinner.. Then, home.. Hehe. Really love the photos we took. Gah! Haha.

144 TTM like totally :D

Ridz: Riiiiiiiight..
Syiqa: Like, totally..
Ridz: haha. (Y)

Time was not on our side

2010-06-13T08:57:00.005+08:00

The watch Iqah gave me for my birthday.. The glass cracked. Dammit. Did you know the watch has gone through a few 'makeovers'? Lol. Yea. At its best, it was red and black. Then, it became red and grey. After that, white and grey. Sadly, in the end, the glass cracked. :(

Unfortunately, unlike April, the watch can't be salvaged. I'm really gonna miss that watch. Hmm, am I gonna get a new one? Cuz I'll feel quite naked on the left wrist if I go out without one.

Yes, The EMAS 10th-anniversary celebration yesterday was enjoyable. Won't go into much detail but I'll name a few things. Playing Uno, cam-whoring, singing f(x)'s Nu ABO while irritating Hazim, being especially blunt at the wrong time and joking around. Fun.

Hmm, I still haven't decided whether I should go for the DZPS outing at East Coast Park tmr.

Lucky me.. I have you.

2010-06-11T21:24:00.003+08:00

Had chemistry today. It was manageable? Haha. Actually, I don't know if I can pass the test. But I hope I will. Pray for me! Lol. Played soccer after that.. Khai almost died. Well, yes, I am exaggerating a bit but it seemed like the way he fell could have landed him in the hospital.

The ball was up in the air. Asyraf and Khai jumped for it. Unexpectedly, Asyraf's shoulder hit Khai in the face. IN YOUR FACE DUDE. Lol. And yea, Khai fell to one side and almost hit his head on the ground. Epic. Funny thing was most of us was laughing at the incident. How nice..

Then, after prayers, met Iqah and juniors, Ienah and Syirah.. They're a crazy couple I tell you especially Ienah. Good entertainment lah. Haha.. World Cup starts tonight! I have no idea which team to support really. It's between England and Germany. Singapore? Jangan harap. Didn't even get through. Haha.

I'm so obsessed
My heart is bound to beat right out of my chest

2010-06-08T23:43:00.003+08:00

Night cycling was awesome. Especially since it was with crazy classmates. We did countless headcounts along this particular seemingly endless route. We stayed in formation to make sure we were together and safe from 'stuff'. Ultimately, we had fun.

But, things would've been better if I had met Iqah today. *puts on gloomy face* Actually, we had planned to meet up after her practice at TPJC. Unfortunately, it ended late. And I couldn't meet her cuz I was going for night cycling. That was what I thought.

When I reached school at the foyer , first thing I was told by Veingad was that Iqah was looking for me. So I eagerly went to find her. But she was already going off with her group. So we didn't get the chance to meet :(

If only I had arrived in school earlier. Aww man.. I saw her but she didn't see me. Seeing the smile on her face for a second would've made my day man. Ah, nevermind.. Good to know we're seeing each other in less than 12hours time. Hehe.

Good night peeps..
143 Iqah :D

2010-06-07T00:14:00.002+08:00

It's really sweet when someone buys breakfast for you without you asking for it. Love you.

2010-05-25T23:12:00.002+08:00

Almost A Band; Though our performance for BPGT was kinda screwed, I'm glad I did it with you guys. Hey, at least we know we're better than how we performed yesterday. I really enjoyed crapping and practising with you guys. Hope we can do it again some time and jam together maybe after the Os. I gotta say, we looked awesome man :D

Oh yea, My parents don't have to come for meet-the-parents-session! Woots!

2010-05-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

Well, tomorrow's the big day.. BPian's Got Talent finals. Hope everything's gonna turn out fine. Would be super awesome if we could win the whole thing. Haha.

2010-05-19T19:43:00.001+08:00

I feel better I guess.. but idk.. I still don't feel so good. The best I can do to drown out this feeling is by blasting paramore songs or sleep. I need someone to talk to.. lol. whatever.

2010-05-17T19:20:00.003+08:00

hmm.. feels like I'm being pushed away sometimes. what to do? It's okay I suppose..

On a happier note, I got 4 A1s for the recent common tests. Yeah! *Pats myself on the back*
All thanks to my Combined Humanities, Emath, Physics and Malay lit. For other subjects,

HMT B3
Chem C6
Amath F9

Yeap. Haven't got our English scripts yet. Calculated my L1R5 already.. It's 13. If I subtract 4 points.. That'll be just under 10! Haha! BUT, considering it's only common tests where only a few topics are tested, it's not really a good achievement. Have to do better for prelim and definitely for Os.

Had an Adam Khoo-esque motivational talk in school just now.. Quite amusing lah.

things will turn out for the better.. it will.

2010-05-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

haha. cute. happy tenth monthsary person. love you.

had our practice today.. about an hour into the whole thing, the atmosphere was kinda awkward and gloomy. don't know why. anyway, I hope Almost A Band can keep it together until the actual performance for BPGT.. My sis likes our rendition of Use Somebody.. Hmm.. after BPGT, I'm definitely gonna upload our awesome covers..

2010-05-15T23:14:00.003+08:00

haziq introduced the song to me.. pretty cool.

about half an hour left

2010-05-12T23:39:00.002+08:00

Common tests are over! Thank god.. 6 tests crammed in 3 days. Finally over.. Okay. Prediction on results. 2 fails: Chem and Amath. Failing Amath is a high possibility for me. I already lost 18 out of 40 marks. Gah! It's okay. Chem, I guess I can pass but I can fail it too. Oh, one more. English maybe. The comprehension was tough yo..

BUT, I have to say this is probably the best common tests I had so far since sec1. YEAH! I was so much prepared for it luh. Though I only started revision last Saturday.. But it's not counting chem and amath though. I kinda gave up on revising those subjects last night. Oh, who cares..

Anyway, good news. My history class got an MSG of 1.3! Woots.. So there's mostly A1s and 2 to 3 A2s. Since I already have A1 for SS, that's a distinction for combined humanes. Woots! Haha.

4 more days

2010-05-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

I feel like shit right now. Haven't spoken much since I got home. Today didn't really go well for me. I got injured during soccer. had to bare with the pain till now. I got a freaking 3/15 for the chem test. I kinda screwed up in spa physics. I had to go for the gamelan thing in RP which a no. of ppl totally ditched. Had little time to finish amath hw. To add to that, I lost 2 pages of tedious workings. Deadline tmr. Hmt file. Deadline tmr. Another freaking chem test. tmr. physics test. yea. just great. probably gonna flunk both. honestly i don't really care. dammit. i gotta mug like fuck during the weekends. i don't want my parents to be asked to come for the meet-the-parents session.

hoping things will turn out better.

2010-05-05T22:13:00.002+08:00

The audition today went well for Almost A Band. We had a few flaws but hey, we received good reviews. Haha. And I'm a bit demoralized.. A few other participants quite good leh. Haha. Now I'm not so sure we can win the competition. But I don't really care if we lose. At least we participated. Yea. Oh yea.. We got labeled 'The Triplets'. Lol. We're Almost A Band! Literally. Haha. Anyway, I hope my nose will clear up soon. Dang, there's chem class test and physics SPA tomorrow. Friday got Physics class test. Argh! Time to start mugging man. =(

2010-05-03T22:23:00.002+08:00

Forgetful.. That's what I've been today. I kept forgetting to take my belongings namely my wallet and handphone. Firstly, I thought I totally lost my wallet when we shifted places. BUT.. I actually got owned by Syafiqah, my dear dear girlfriend.. Haha. Dammit seh. So paiseh. And yea.. I hate to admit it but history does repeat itself. It happened two more times. Well, from then on it concerned my handphone lah.. After we were a good distance from McDonalds, I felt that my right pocket was kinda empty. "Oh crap! I left my handphone!" Just when I was about to head back, Iqah was smiling at me and took out my handphone from her pocket. Lol. Thanks a lot ah.. Haha. Then, again, after hanging out, I thought I left my handphone at the table. But I got fooled yet again. Ugh!

But I guess I learnt my lesson. I hope. Haha. Good thing I rarely lose my stuff. Not like someone. *Hints*hints* XD

Okay.. I gotta read Subuh Hilang Senja. Dang..

2010-04-30T18:52:00.004+08:00

Dear April,

You came into my life on the 8th day of August 2009.
I was glad she picked you. You were our 'baby'.
The first song I successfully played on you was 6 Months by Hey Monday.
I remembered how elated I was to be able to play my first song.
I even managed to compose a song or two for my beloved girlfriend.
I performed for people.
And because of you, I had the worst stage fright of my life so far.
But, I thank you because I've gained more confidence.

However, fate had its way.
You left on the last day of April 2010.
The last song I played on you was Brick By Boring Brick by Paramore.
You didn't even get to live till a year-old.
I guess I shouldn't have left you on the lurch.
But I have to let you go.
Thank you for all the memories you've given me.

I will dearly miss you.

Yours sincerely,
Ridzwan.

Photos of the fateful day up on facebook.

2010-04-26T00:37:00.001+08:00

A new song I composed. Hehe.. I just realized the title is similar to Hady Mirza's Singapore Idol song.. Lol. Totally not intentional. Anyway, hope you like it.

2010-04-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

Stage fright's a bitch I tell you. And being the last group with the freezing auditorium, didn't make things any better. My palms were sweating, my heart was pounding, my teeth were clattering and I was shivering! I looked over my left shoulder. I was sure that Hazim and I shared the same sentiments about performing for our group's project presentation.

The brief performance wasn't all good I would say. Hazim forgot the improvised plan we had discussed about during other groups' presentations. And I guess I played a tad faster than I had planned. Nervous lah. Haha.

BUT, the response after our performance was positive. 'Beautiful' - that's what I heard one of the judges say. I guess I'm flattered by the comment but I'm a bit skeptical about it cuz of the song we played. It was Brick By Boring Brick by Paramore. Makes you wonder huh? Haha. Despite that, I wholeheartedly accept that comment. Hehe.

I still can't believe people thought the performance was that good lah. Really. Hazim and I thought it was crappy. Haha. Even so, Yi Fei, the president of TYC@BL, praised us for it. She even said we should start a band. LOL. Well, thanks for the compliments I guess. Appreciate it a lot.

CLIMB was great. Made new friends yo.. Lol. Group 8 ~ UNO!

2010-04-19T00:05:00.002+08:00

THIS IS SPARTA!!!

Haha. What do you think? Drew this in school over a span of 2-3weeks? Just adding details and shades. Not actually done yet but I guess I couldn't wait to upload it. Kiasu much? Lol.
Tell me what you think. Do tag!

2010-04-16T23:26:00.005+08:00

9th monthsary and 3 more months to 160710.. =D

Hmm.. today was okay. It was e-learning day. After that, went for friday prayers. Bumped into Zulfiqar and Mr Zaharuddin. I'm so flattered that Mr Zaharuddin still remembers me. It's been more than 3 years since I last met him. Haha.. So yea.. met Hazim and Asyur at Bukit Batok. Oh, Hafiz lost his slippers at the mosque. Epic..

So at Joel's house, played Rock Band baby! Haha. I especially like playing the guitar man.. Singing second. Drums, I would surely fail at that. Lol. Oh, I made random announcements using the mic like saying, "Attention fellow shoppers. There is a missing boy at the information counter..blablabla." Farnie. Lol. I even sang Rihanna's Umbrella and Lady Gaga's Telephone at parts when there weren't any lyrics. Had a good laugh doing all that shitx.

Oh yea, we even skated. Haha. It's much tougher that I thought it would be. And I'm only talking about riding it like just skate and not doing the stunts. But eventually, I got myself familiar with the skateboard. I managed to do this trick where while skating, I sat on the skateboard and eventually lying on my back. Pro right? Lol.

After that, went to lot 1. Met up with honey and her clique. Amirah was noisy.. -_- Then, this guy who seemed so sure that he knew me salam-ed me. After that, I went, "Who the hell was that?" Hahaha. I really had no idea who he was. But after honey bravely asked him who he was, I guess I have a rough idea.

Then, took a bus ride back to Bukit Batok with Kak Syaza and Haiyyum (Is that how his name is spelled?)

Hazim and Joel.. lol.

Hmm.. if only I could spend more time with you today..

2010-04-12T18:32:00.002+08:00

Yes, I know today was totally hot and humid.. So I would like to apologize. I'm sorry.. Haha.
Anyway, I was sending Iqah home and then hey! Bumped into her mum, Kak Syaza and Izz Zamil! He's so big now. I don't think big is an understatement lah. Haha.. Okay what his size. Yea, so we walked all the way to Alif Restaurant there. Met her dad.. and yea.. went home.

Hmm.. gotta mug for chem test tomorrow. Acid, Bases and Salts! Wish me luck. Cuz I'm gonna need it. -_-

2010-04-11T11:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's SYF Band Competition was an eye-opener. Surprisingly, I only realized then that band members have put in a lot of effort and hours to practise for one performance that was only about 10 minutes. And this is despite seeing them every Thursday and every other days playing their instruments under the hot sun. And they have been practicing at the field every morning even before school starts. Now that's what I call commitment and dedication.

I know how they felt when I saw some of them cry after the results were announced. Disappointment. It's like the amount of work they've put in wasn't enough to get them the award they wanted. But the truth is, I believe they do deserve it. I guess it's just that their performance wasn't as fantastic or spectacular to the judges as compared to other schools.

Hmm.. I'm glad they still had the spirit to 'announce' their presence to people in McDonald's and other commuters near Lot 1. Haha.

On the whole, I hope yesterday is one of those days that I can remember till whenever. With things like Mr Chua's uber epic expression when Hafiz and I had to leave the Affirmation Ceremony, rushing to reach the competition on time, coolio band performances, reminiscing the Paramore concert, the super friendly 15-year-old New Zealand girl that looks older, talking and joking at McDonald's with the guys and of course Syafiqah, maybe I will. =]

2010-04-07T20:20:00.003+08:00

mummy, it's the Eiffel Tower

LOL. It's just some tall structure near Bukit Batok Nature Reserve. Yesterday was eventful. Okay, firstly met up with Iqah to simply go home after school. But had to take the bus cuz I didn't have my card. Guess what. We made South Korean friends. Of course right? Can't be North Korean. Lol. I think the dude was practising his English. It was okay. We didn't mind helping him out. I'm glad Iqah was there cuz at times I couldn't understand a think he was saying.

Then, this epic thing happened. At this particular turn near Bukit Batok Driving Centre, the bus abruptly braked and the Korean dude literally flew from his seat. Okay, maybe I'm exaggerating but it was close to that. Good thing he wasn't injured.

Then then, we missed our stopped. I forgot to press the bell. Oops.. Haha. Oh, we decided to go into Bukit Batok Nature Reserve.. Lol. I forgot how long we were in there. We got lost! And to think I was in the Orienteering team two years ago. Epic. Haha. Nevermind.

We ended up resting near the pond. And.. guess what again. We saw horny monkeys.. Shall I elaborate? I shall. I thought the monkeys were playfully fooling around INNOCENTLY. I guess I was wrong. I think one monkey got turned on when it saw it's buddy's ass. So he proceeded to bang it's buddy. Hahaha. Epic sia.. Really. I'm so glad Homo sapiens evolved man.. Haha.

Today was brought to you by the word irritating
*Sesame Street's Ending Theme Song Starts Playing*

2010-04-04T19:19:00.002+08:00

Back from my cousin's engagement ceremony. Congrats Kak Didi.. As usual, it was just my mum, my sis and myself. My dad just stayed home all day. The whole event was okay. Nothing interesting happened. The food was satisfying I guess. There was eclair! But I ate a different kind which had chocolate filling. I was too late to get a bite of the eclair which had normal white cream filling. Okay. Enough about my appetite.

My aunt actually told my sis jokingly to slap my dad. Just to let him realize and just reconcile with my mum's side of the family. Lol. Sometimes I wonder why my dad is so stubborn. Honestly, I felt really out of place there. Bummer. Nevermind. Oh, my other cousin, Nadirah has a baby boy. So cute lah. He looks like a Chinese baby. Haha.

2010-04-03T22:10:00.004+08:00

As expected, I didn't even touch my argumentative essay. I think it would've been better if I went out to study with Iqah and friends today and did the History project yesterday. Things would have fallen into place perfectly. And I can turn up for my cousin's engagement with my mum and sis without any difficulties tomorrow. Haiya, nevermind. What to do? Life doesn't always go the way you want it to.

Anyway, I found my junior's tumblr. And guess what? It's so cool! Well, I find it cool cuz there are plenty of uber cool images on it especially those with coolio quotes. That's just one thing. I have yet to find other great things about tumblr. Hmm.. maybe I should dump blogger and move to tumblr. Haha. We'll see.

Here's one that made me laugh.
Here's an irony for you.. Why is it that I can bring myself to blog and not write my argumentative essay? I guess I'm not in the mood to argue. Lol.

2010-04-03T15:17:00.003+08:00

What a pro! After watching this guy play, I feel like a total noob despite having played the guitar for less than 8 months. Lol. I've been watching Youtube videos since morning. Especially guitar covers. And I haven't showered. Eww.. Haha. I will okay? After this post. Gonna be home all day today. Gotta finish my argumentative essay by today.

Oh, I found out this morning from my mum that my cousin is getting engaged tomorrow. Fuyoh!
But I have the History project to finish tomorrow with Hazim and Joel. Hmm.. Hope I can make it in time for the occasion. Haha. Sounds like I'm the one my cousin is getting engaged to. LOL.

2010-03-24T23:31:00.003+08:00

I've struck GOLD baby!!! I got full marks for NAPFA test.. I'm pretty sure ah. If I wrong, paiseh.. I'm so surprised I did pretty well in 2 stations that I was sure I was gonna screw up in. They were chin-ups and sit-ups. I officially did 9 chin-ups. Muahahaha. Well, most of the chin-ups I did were the standard chin-up but hey officially in black and white I did 9. Haha. And I thought I could do only 5.. Adrenaline rush maybe. And I did 44 sit-ups.. Hehe. I was struggling just to get over 42.. or was it 43? Anyway, all I wanted was an A grade. Most of us actually had 10 seconds left but we just stopped. Haha. Pro.

Actually, before the whole thing, all I wanted was to pass this year's NAPFA test.. Haha. What a bonus man.

I miss those times.

2010-03-23T19:27:00.006+08:00

Basketball today was fun. Played with Xu Ying, Hafiz, Timothy and mostly 4M2 guys. Hehe. I'm pretty good. Just need to improve on accuracy and passing to the right person. Haha. I was super wet after the game. Lol. Oh, did I mention we played when everyone else was having timed-practice? Muahahaha. So shiok..

We had the English presentation thingy before lunch. Most classes were entertaining.. 4p1 was the only class that did not include the whole class.. Paiseh. Haha.. We did okay lah.. We received Kinder Bueno and Ferrero Roche. Yummy! Thank you Mrs. Lim.

NAPFA test tomorrow yo! I think I'm gonna suck at chin-ups and sit-ups.. No gold this year? Whatever.. O-level more important. Haha. Like as if I started mugging like that. Wish me luck.

Listen to this sweet and soothing song..

You seemed super elated this morning.. Glad you're happy. =]

2010-03-17T16:25:00.003+08:00

Check it out.. Just click on the image above. Most of the bands in it are pretty good. Some refreshing music. Not mainstream but still, it's good. Furthermore, I could download some songs.
Haha.. So kiasu.. Anyway, my head is pounding. Dammit man.. Not sure if I'll feel like doing homework. I'll stop using the com after this post. I will.. lol.

waiting, waiting

2010-03-17T11:36:00.002+08:00

I've been dreaming this dream where I am running over this road via this exposed overhead bridge. And the sucky thing about the dream is that I always seem tired of running. Before using the overhead bridge I think I was running away from something or someone. I vaguely remember being in a war! hahaha.. lawl. Veingad was there! We were in the jungle under the dark black sky. There were a few explosions here and there. Oh, I remember this soldier. He looked American and seemed like he was looking for something. I was probably hiding from him in the bushes.

Eventually, I managed to get away from the war and magically got in civilian clothes. Lawl. So at the end of the overhead bridge is a bus-stop which reminds me so much of one in Geylang. At this bus-stop, there was this shop. I wanted to get something to drink. Surprisingly, the shopkeeper told me there was a special request for Bandung. Haha! There was only one packet of Bandung among the carbonated drinks. Lucky me! Lol. Bought it. Drank it.

And then.. I was woken up. Got a text from Iqah at 1 25am.. Wah, I hope she had enough sleep last night. Okay, so strangely enough, this whole thing reminds me of the Matrix. Haha. Figure it out yourself. I'm too lazy to explain. =]

I'm torn, I'm torn
To be right where you are.

2010-03-16T21:39:00.002+08:00

I feel like singing this song to you..
Sigh.. Please come back home soon.

2010-03-16T13:22:00.003+08:00

I'll be home all day today. Sadly.. Iqah has guides' camp at Serambun.. Boohoo.. I forgot when she'll be back. Anyway, I think I will occupy myself with homework the whole day.

happy eighth monthsary.. wish you were here..

2010-03-14T01:17:00.002+08:00

17% Words of Affirmation
37% Quality Time
3% Receiving Gifts
20% Acts of Service
23% Physical Touch

It's a test that iqah asked me to take. I guess it's fairly accurate lah. The receiving gifts part 0% also can. Yea, so here's the link if you reader(s) want to try it.

Http://www.afo.net/hftw-lovetest.asp

Went out with iqah yesterday.. We wore white T-shirts. Lawl. It was purely coincidental. It's super rare lah for us to wear something similar. And we never plan what to wear together. Wearing similar clothing would be AWKWARD. lol. I think people would have mistook us for twins man. XD

So we decided to watch Alice In Wonderland.. We really had nothing to do. I guess we were killing time. haha. So the movie was okay. I thought it could've been better. How? IDK. The movie reminded me of something I watched before. It was vaguely similar but I can't remember what it was. Whatever.

After the movie, we ate at KFC. Mariah Carey's Obsessed was on replay. -_-

Then, we hanged out at Bukit Batok. Taught iqah a guitar riff from Paramore. Hehe.

Yeah.. I have a question. Can you imagine your thumb in someone's mouth? I can.. haha.

Wokay. I need to turn in already. It's 1 40am. OMGEEEYEJOE. bye.

Should I tell you? I wonder if it'll happen again.

2010-03-08T18:14:00.004+08:00

Paramore was awesome! Though I think I could've died or broken a bone, all in all, I enjoyed the whole experience. Yesterday, it was the first time I ate McDonald's outdoors alone. How sad huh? Haha. And I can safely say Paramore's concert was way better than Red Jumpsuit Apparatus'. It topped RJA's by a mile. Really.

The concert was opened by a local band, Monaco or something. The lead vocalist was hilarious. I couldn't understand a thing she was singing. The base was pretty loud. I could feel every base note in my chest. I guess they were okay but the crowd was pretty dead when they were performing. One bugger was showing 2 middle fingers the whole time the band was playing. I hope they didn't see that. Lol.

Paramore opened with Ignorance. The moment they came out was the signal for people to start nudging and pushing around. Apparently, noobs like myself were caught off guard. Firstly, we swayed to the left. Then to the right. It felt like i was in the sea except that there was no water and that I didn't have to swim. All of a sudden, the domino effect happened. It was super scary! I was shouting, "WTH WTF!" Haha. Then right, I couldn't move my left leg cos' gravity was a bitch. I was frantically trying to get up man. I was worried I was gonna go home with a broken leg.

And I think I accidentally molested someone. Maybe? Haha. I think fell on top of a girl and as I was trying to get up... Yea. You get the picture.. There were a lot of girls screaming. Many guys were calling out for everyone to get up. I joined them too lor. Thankfully, I could stand on 2 feet after that ordeal. By then, I was already sweating like hell and to think it was only the beginning. LOL. Even Atiqah was wiping sweat of her face.

Many other things happened lah. But I guess that was the highlight for me. Haha. Hmm, Paramore played about 12 songs. I bet I was singing out of tune for every song cos' I really couldn't hear a thing that came out of my mouth. Lawl. They didn't play Turn It Off. =(
Nevermind. I hope they come back. Please do please do. Oh yes. Can't thanked Atiqah enough for being my concert buddy though it was her first concert. Haha.

Oh oh! I didn't take many photos. Anyway, even if I did, they wouldn't look good. So I took videos instead. But the audio's pretty shitty. I'll see if I wanna post them up.

2010-03-06T21:40:00.003+08:00

YMC at bedok today. I was kinda disappointed cos' it wasn't focused on JC or polytechnic much. It was more about what we want to be in future. One question was, "What is your dream job?" I wrote down lawyer at first. Then, i considered businessman. Later, I crossed out the two and wrote down events organizer. I'm not really sure why i wrote that but it kinda seems interesting. I thought of writing down engineer but.. seems boring. Who knows, I might change my mind yet again in future. How I wish I had a clear vision of my aspirations but it's quite vague. I need direction and motivation. I need to decide soon.

In all, the discussion was alright. I had an epic moment during the break. I was gonna savor my last chocolate eclair. Unfortunately, I hit my hand on Daniyal's back when I turned and I watched the eclair drop to the carpet floor. It's creamy insides splattered around it. The eclair should have been in my stomach right now. How sad. Four eclairs should have been in my stomach. Anyway, the chicken satays were huge. And filling. I like.

The trip back home was farnie. We alighted from the train at Kembangan station cos' there was a pungent smell. It was the apek in front of me. When we boarded the next train,,, Haha. Just great. Someone farted. We just moved to the next cabin. Talked all the way with Hafiz and Daniyal.

Oh. Lakjin told me he waited for Paramore from 2pm to 7pm at the airport just to welcome them. Sadly, they didn't turn up. According to him, there was a huge crowd. Must've been a real bummer. I'm just hoping the line might not be too long when I start queuing up tomorrow. Earliest 5pm i guess. Hazim joked that I should bring my bike cos' when the door opens, I can cycle all the way to the front. LAWL. I hope nothing unfortunate happens tomorrow.

Please don't walk away, please tell me you'll stay

2010-03-05T23:34:00.002+08:00

My cover of The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus' Your Guardian Angel.
All pictures from deviantart.com
I lost by breath at one moment. =P
Enjoy, or not.

2010-03-05T14:58:00.002+08:00

2nd place for 2.4km run this morning!
9min 20s
haha.. obviously khai was first.
I couldn't catch up with him lah. too fast.
he's stamina is superb man.
Imran was third. he was 4s behind me. heng ah..

my voice? wei en said i sounded like a robot this morning.
coolio. but i think it's better ah.
thanks to keeping quiet during certain periods, ricola that
Imran bought and the tea from the mosque.

oh.. I miss my girlfriend. I really do. I wonder what she's doing now.
I swear i was frustrated cuz i didn't see her much.
At least you came into my class. haha. i was changing
into my uniform. she saw me and gave me the disgusted face.
sad case. lol. nvm.

will be going to Yayasan Mendaki at Bedok for YMC.
there'll be a talk on Poly and JC. It would really be helpful for me.

then, on sunday... PARAMORE! yeah man! hmm.. actually i'm not that
excited lah. so so only.. they're coming to singapore 2mrw. lak jin apparently
wants to go see them at the airport with his friend. what dedication. haha.
hope he has fun waiting cuz no one knows exactly what time they're arriving.
lol.

i think i'll finish all my homework today. start studying for amath test maybe?
idk. but i want to play guitat first.. hehe.

one more thing. I miss you.
bye.

2010-02-27T18:35:00.002+08:00

BPFSD!! look at hafiz. haha. wth.. Unfortunately, we didn't win but hey, we had loads of fun at Amoy Quee Camp. and i didn't screw up the reporting out!! yay! well, i almost did. there was a short pause when i was thanking the sergeant major.. It went like this.

Good morning sergeant major! Bukit Panjang Goverment High School Drill Team has completed the Freestyle Exhibition Drill routine. Permission to leave your drill area!
Thank you...... sergeant major!

haha.. hey, random. i still remember my Nadim: Misi & Visi line.
Ampun tuanku, ada seorang budak ingin datang mengadap tuanku.

lawl.. ok. how we did? okay i guess. there wasn't really any major cock-ups. just minor ones. almost everyone kinda did different hand gestures at one point. i was supposed to do the hadouken hand gesture but i did the original idea which was to salute. haha. some of my teammates did that to.. everyone else was supposed to do the 'ultraman'.

on the whole, i think we didn't wow the judges enough. could have been the song maybe. but truthfully, our routine was mostly original. other schools did some typical sequences and some did PDS moves.. only our school used a purely alternative rock song. most schools used either techno songs and some fast beat songs. two songs that played most today was Lady Gaga's Bad Romance and Ke$ha's Tik Tok.

hmm.. the most outstanding team today for me was River Valley High School's girls team. the were simply fantastic. even the host of the event, Sir Jack Sparrow, was kinda lost for words after their routine. i think he said, "River Valley High School Girls Team! That was (pause) Freestyle Drill!"

yea. on the way out of amoy quee in the bus was fun. we mostly waved to everyone that passed. so funny. after playing basketball in school, we ate in lot 1 then i went home. the others went to wenjie's i think. oh i have to thank putra for treating everybody milo. so nice..

so, that's about it for today.. will be meeting iqah for ice-cream later. yay yay! haha. kay bye.

2010-02-23T20:32:00.002+08:00

yo! quick post..
had the study skills workshop today.
it was ok i guess. somewhat motivated to start mugging..
anyway, i hope it will prove effective on this certain someone.. hehe.
yea.. i really really can't wait for the paramore concert man..
seems so far away.

oh, have to go for a hike 2mrw just to check the route for the ncc-guides walk next thurday.
yay! haha.

yea,, kay, going void deck to study now.. bye.

2010-02-21T13:17:00.002+08:00

update on my life
hmm.. last night my gf was high.. idk why. hey that rhymes. -_-
we met yesterday after our respective UGs
and.. we talked. not like on friday.. haha.
oh. thanks for the O.R burger iqah. i was famished. =)

in 6 days' time, freestyle drill competition.
i hope BPFSD will do well. wish us good luck yea?

oh! in 2 weeks' time, PARAMORE CONCERT BABY!!
I have to save up..

yea.. that's about it readers.. bye. gotta go cut my hair.
really hoping it'll be good this time.

2010-02-16T22:39:00.001+08:00

7th monthsary, 2 years of friendship.
I love you iqah..

kay. I'm sleepy. I guess I'll be doing amath 2mrw. bye.

2010-02-15T23:44:00.002+08:00

On two occasions today, i had to quickly finish my bandung that i bought from the mama shop at the bus-stop just cuz the 188 bus was approaching. dammit. couldn't savor every drop of bandung slowly.

2010-02-14T17:43:00.003+08:00

I can better understand tabs now!! Somehow it's less confusing than previous times. So what I play on the guitar would sound more like the song itself. woots!

Oh, I lost the pencil we used to play the moment of truth game. I used it as my makeshift capo. Now I'm using a blue pencil. Yuck.. Black is better. haha. I should really get a real capo huh? Lawl.

Do check out my new Youtube channel =D
AtrophicPretense

I have only two songs uploaded. heh..

2010-02-12T21:56:00.002+08:00

Slept from 3pm to 9pm.
I've never felt so lethargic in my life.
I actually slept and woke up a few times in class during the first recess today.
I didn't want to sleep during the second recess. Didn't want to feel sick?
Hmm, actually, I don't remember what the khutbah for today was about. So bad huh? lawl.
Oh ya, I even tried sleeping during the CNY thingy in the parade square.
Every single time i was about to fall asleep I would have spasm-esque movements.
Very sudden one. And every time that happened I would wake up. Dammit. haha.

The CNY celebration? Erm, nothing much lah. Quite mundane if you ask me. I liked the tossing of the 'something sheng'. Surprisingly, tasty. I thought it would taste bland.
Totally random: Benjamin's band performance was entertaining indeed.
Especially his infectious laugh.

OkAY. Let's talk about the chalet last night.. Similarly, nothing much.
But at least it was better than today. Highlights of the chalet for me?
The performance with hazim, the moment of truth game and late night crap talk.
Face Down was fine and we got people singing along.
Dear Maria Count Me In, we were literally background music. haha.
I probably should've sang in a higher octave or for that fact LOUDER.
Pfft, who cares anw. lol.
The moment of truth game was fun but we kinda ran out of questions to ask.
We even skipped a few people despite the fact that the pencil was pointing to them.
Then late night crap talk.. talked about ghosts and anything else under the sun.

Overall, my first time sleeping over at a chalet was a pretty good experience.

2010-02-09T21:35:00.003+08:00

yo!! my com is fixed. muahaha. just got the CPU back from the shop. the thingy in the motherboard and the visual card kinda got screwed that's why the com went haywire.

hmm, I really can't wait for the chalet on thursday.. and guess what. i'll be staying over!! woots! woots! haha. actually, i haven't tell my parents yet. i'll tell them soon. 2mrw night.. haha. so the thing is we'll be going to school on friday from the chalet itself.. cool huh? actually, it's nothing ah. just that i'm used to going to school from home. duh-oh!

hmm, oh ya.. last saturday right, i made iqah cry.. i really really really didn't mean to. felt extremely guilty after that. thankfully, she was ok lah.
lesson learnt: don't stare at her. really don't.

now right, i'm kinda scared to look at her even for idk 10 seconds? skali she cry.. might never know. haha. of course i'm just overreacting lah. just don't stare at her lor. good enough.

i guess i have nothing else to blog about. till next time. bye.

oh yea. one more thing. iqah, if you wanna post on my blog. anything lah. if it's not to my approval i can always delete it what. haha. kay bye.

2010-01-31T10:30:00.001+08:00

High E string broke.. what a bummer. hmm, nvm. doesn't really make much of a difference. looks like I'll be home all day today.

2010-01-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

I just realized my blog is kinda spammed with my song.. haha. here's the thing. me and iqah made a deal. i would learn her song and vice versa. then we sing to each other lor. haha. yea.. kay bye. 3 posts in a day? that's too much ridzwan. -_-

2010-01-29T21:00:00.003+08:00

let's hope this one is not brought down too..
here's the same one but it's myspace's

Faith - Ridz (Original)

Ridz | MySpace Music Videos

lawl. i'm going so much trouble just for you..

2010-01-29T20:40:00.001+08:00

My youtube account got suspended. FML. Nevermind, I'll use my other youtube account and upload the song again. If i get suspended again, FML for real. No lah. Actually, I'll just be really fed-up.

2010-01-25T23:54:00.000+08:00

I'll be waiting for yours.. Don't take too long hor..

2010-01-24T09:37:00.000+08:00

Hey, here's another link to play my song

Myspace

But once again, word of caution, press play if you dare

2010-01-22T20:19:00.001+08:00

Press the play button if you dare.

2010-01-20T22:00:00.002+08:00

Thanks a bunch to those who gave me birthday wishes and celebrated my birthday..
I think a lot of people wished me and I really did not expect them. I think this is one birthday I will remember for a very long time.

I got to cut my first cake! Iqah too! Haha. Her clique celebrated our birthdays together. Thank you for everything lah. Though it was quite awkward that we had to pose for a few pics, I appreciate the fact that you girls bothered to do such a thing for iqah and me. Haha. Oh ya, one auntie thought me and iqah we're twins celebrating our birthdays. Lmao. Do we look alike? Haha.

Iqah gave me a watch. Thank you honey. I'll take super extra good care of it. I'll make sure of that. =D And yes, thank you for singing the song! haha. somehow I can't wait to sing your song and hear you sing my song. Wahahaha.

Hmm.. There were only 2 bad things today lah. My migraine kept turning on and off. And, i said no to being in the freestyle drill team.. I wish i had more time to decide. Haiya nvm lah. Hope they find someone better. I felt really bad man..

Ok. Whatever.. hmm.. It's less than an hour till my birthday ends. Till next year. =D
Bye sexy ppl.