Enrollment Package

Where are you? It seems like everyone else got it except me. Why? Why make me wine like a swine? It sucks opening the mail and not seeing anything inside. If I get it though on Monday hopefully, I'll be the happiest guy on that day. If I don't get it, I'll have to give NP a call then. So troublesome.

Down

I think it's hardest for me to be miserable cuz every time I'm down. It feels like I can't really tell anybody. And every single time, I wanna cry. But I can't. I wanna feel really vulnerable. But again, I can't. Everything is just pent up, bottled up, right in my chest. Honestly, it hurts. I hate the feeling. I mean, who doesn't? It's so hard to get rid of. It just seems like there's no way, no solution. Then again, you might think (that's if anyones reading this) I'm just being a drama queen or I'm being too emotional. Maybe I am. Actually, I hate the fact that I'm a tad too sensitive. At times, I tend to react way too negatively towards what people say or do that might hurt me or the ones I care for. Maybe it's the way I am, the way I was brought up. I don't know. I can't just stop being too sensitive, can I? Trust me, if there was a way, I would totally go for it. Cuz my over-sensitive attitude sometimes hurt others too, even though I don't mean to. And it upsets me further that I unintentionally hurt someone that's trying to help lessen my emotional strain. Even when someone tries to console me, I'd want to be even sadder. Is that weird? I think it is. I am weird. Actually, I think no one truly knows who I am and the things I've done except God. Sometimes I wish I'm not the way I am. I wish I could go back in time and correct my mistakes so I wouldn't end up this way. But what's the use? I might just screw it up all over again. In conclusion, I've no idea why I did this. Maybe I thought I'd feel better if I did. Well, I do. Just a bit. Not so much. It's just a random emo rant by a typical teenage boy. Maybe I'm having mood swings. I don't know. I don't care what the reason is. I just feel down. And I don't really expect anyone to care. Wait. Maybe I do. I don't know. Whatever. I'll feel better after a good night sleep.

Blogspot's Dead

It seems like no one uses blogspot anymore. Well, my sister's still active but there used to be more people actively blogging. It's probably due to facebook and tumblr or the fact that they don't find the need to post on blogspot. I'm proud to admit I'm using tumblr. Guilty as charged. :D The above are some of the things I've re-blogged or posted.

If you're reading this, well guess what, you're one of a few that goes to my blog or you're just a plain stalker. Just kidding. Well, fact is I won't be posting on here much. Most of the time, the posts would be random and have long intervals between them. Moral of the story is, if you're still following this blog of mine, you'd have to have patience for the post or stop following. Ciao.

Well, this is a little update. I initially wanted to cycle to Marina Barrage but I couldn't figure out how to. So I settled with Marina Bay. It was exhausting. My palms were all red from grabbing at the handles for too long. By the way, I like my RayBan sunglasses

I'm not sure whether I'm going out tomorrow. Supposedly, I'm meeting Iqah. She wants to go rollerblading at Bukit Batok Nature Park? Haha. Yea. But no news yet from her. TEXT ME SOON IQAH! I've no idea if she's gonna read this. Haha. Wait. Are there any other visitors to my blog? Seriously. Cuz it feels like my girlfriend's the only visitor. Do leave a tag yea? Ciao.

Release of O level Results 2010

Mr Chua: Too many A2s

Ridz: *thinks*"So did I do well or not?"

Well, disappointments first. I got an A2 for Emath, and a C5 for Malay Lit. I was aiming for an A1 for Emath but I didn't get it. I wanted at least an A2 for Malay Lit. But hey, I did better than I expected for English. A2 :D. And I was so elated that I received the same grade for A-freaking-math. Haha.

Oh yea. I was totally broke after eating at Delifrance with the guys after receiving our results. One last thing. Gotta congratulate BPGHS Batch 2010 for bringing the school back up to Band 1. I'm so proud. ^_^

First Youth Alive Lesson

I was on my way to Al-Mukminin Mosque, expecting to be in a normal classroom with normal classroom tables and chairs with plain white walls. Well, guess what. I was the only student who knew about the lesson this morning. On top of that, I was sitting on a tiny yellow plastic chair with my long legs tucked under a turquoise table. I was surrounded by a myriad of colours. Then, there was a baby pink slide in one corner, 'protected' by a 2D fort pasted on the same corner. There was a bright red unicorn/donkey staring at me with its round eyes, laughing at the situation I was in.

But, on the whole, the lesson was fruitful I would say. In addition, I was released early. I'm really hoping more people would come for the lesson next week. That way, we can have group discussions. If not, it'll be a tiny bit awkward for the Uztazah and I. Do come people! :D

Different

While many were dragging their still-in-holiday-mood bodies to school early in the morning, I took my time before going over to Imran's house for a day of video games. I had fun. It's nice to know we don't have to worry about homework, what books to bring and waking up early!

Oh! Guess what. My Internet's back! Despite my ecstatic state upon realizing my Internet connection was back from the dead, I quickly found out that I don't do much surfing. Which then, results in me getting utterly bored. Okay. Exaggeration much? Hmm.. Usually, it's just Facebook, blogging, a bit of Youtube and that's it.

So.. in turn, my boredom led to me creating a Formspring account! You're able to ask me anything on my profile and I'll try my best to answer appropriately. So far.. No one has asked me anything!

Haha. A day in life.

Ask me anything :D http://www.formspring.me/Ridzthewheez