I scraped my knees when I was praying
And found a demon in my safest haven, seems like
It's getting harder to believe in anything
And just to get lost in all my selfish thoughts

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off

In all my spite
In all my spite
I'll turn it off

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

The tragedy, it seems unending
I'm watching everyone I looked up to break and bending
We're taking shortcuts and false solutions
Just to come out the hero

Well I can see behind the curtain (I can see, yeah yeah)
The wheels are cranking, turning, so on the way we're working
Towards a goal, that's not existent
It's not existent, but we just keep believing

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

I wanna know what it'd be like
To find perfection in my pride
To see nothing in the light
I'll turn it off

In all my spite
In all my spite
I'll turn it off

Just turn it off
Again
Again

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

And the worst part is
Before it gets any better
We're headed for a cliff
And in the free fall I will realize
I'm better off when I hit the bottom

Turn It Off - Paramore

YEAH!!! so much about kiasu-ness.. haha. now i have to wait for more than two months for the concert. on top of that, i have to make sure i don't lose the ticket. man, the wait is just gonna be worthwhile.. lml PARAMORE!!! lml

thanks dad..

They're coming to Singapore for a concert on 7th March 2010. Atiqah's going with her cousin and her cousin's friends. Lak Jin's going with his friend. Who else is going? I asked my mum already. She let me go. But I'm not sure if I wanna go. Having second thoughts about it. I wonder if she's going. Haiya.. i just hope i find someone to tag along with.

had ncc bbq yesterday. not many came. it was okay. i liked listening to Sir Yus' stories. damn funny. reached home around 12 30am. today, just stayed home all day. okay lah. i could keep myself entertained. there were a few shows on okto like Arthur and Bindi The Jungle Girl.
and i finally got a chorus for the song. half way through? i have the second verse and the second pre-chorus already. maybe i can finish it tonight. haha. we'll see. =D

*i've uploaded this drawing before.

Happy 5th monthsary iqah. too bad you can't go out today.
1st monthsary, we studied for common test 2.
2nd monthsary, we broke fast at kfc.
3rd monthsary, i made you drink milk. haha.
4th monthsary, i taught you and myra how to play the guitar. met your sis and cousins too.
5th monthsary? i guess this would be a first for us. nvm. there'll be other days to meet up. i hope it's as soon as possible lah.. haha.

haha.. i feel so beloh. all along i thought ncc camp starts tomorrow when in actual fact it starts on thursday. lol. so i'm free tomorrow!!! woots!!! tomorrow!!! haha. siao.. maybe should go for ice-cream tomorrow night. how iqah? your parents would allow tak?

that's amirah emo-ing looking at the scenery.

anyway, went for gamelan outing to pahlawan beach today.

one word. AWESOME. haha. i especially liked the games we played.

filled with loads of fun and laughter. oh, and i'm super sorry to safwanah,

farhanah and suhaina for accidentally hurting them during the games.

i think i hurt more people though. oops. haha.

i so badly wanted to fully go into the water man!! but my mum didn't let me swim.

=( the thing is i can't swim! haha. can just go inside. i actually had the chance to you know.

but thing's just didnt go my way or our way i should say cuz iqah also wanted to play

in the water longer. cuz everyone was getting ready to go wash up and stuff. yea. nvm lor.

random thought. the sec 2 dudes are just fun to hang out with. they're hilarious. really.

in the train ride home, the totally-random-with-open-topic conversation was interesting

and plain funny.

and.. iqah! i totally thought you weren't coming you know. i'm glad you could.. hehe.

yup. that's it. today was A-W-E-S-O-M-E.

photos of west coast reservoir. i kinda found it while idly cycling I DON'T KNOW WHERE. haha. actually, i had planned to cycle to harbour front but i was sick of cycling towards there although it's been I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG SINCE I'VE CYCLED TOWARDS THERE. so i U-turned followed a new route i passed west coast park. cycle cylcle cycle found the reservoir. then, i reached this teban gardens place. it took me a while before i got out of that place and find out where i actually was. at one point of time, i actually thought if i was in the twilight zone. haha.

then otw home, i suddenly had a craving for chocolate waffles!! then i remembered there was this shop that hafiz introduced to me which sold yummy waffles. so i went there i bought one. =D
after that, i met nuurainy and co. lol. when i saw them, i instantly said, "WTF!" my hair lah. it looked like wolverine's.. before going off from home, i actually used hairspray to keep my hair down. i guess it didnt work. haha.

here's a cycling tip. if you don't want to bother about your hair while cycling, wear a hat or a helmet. saves you a lot of trouble and embarrassment maybe. haha. yea that's was my day. just went cycling. oh oh. did you know Singapore has a Japanese Secondary School? there were actually a lot of the students having baseball training when i passed that school.. they looked so japanese.. yea. that didn't make sense. anw, bye. haha.

went out for a while just now. met WET RAZI at the mrt station to lend him my guitar tuner.. fahri and amalina were there too. after that, i bought mentos from 7 11 and kerepek ubi from the mama shop near my house.. haiz.. no life. haha. met my neighbourhood friends? yea.. fadhil!! haha. he changed a lot liao. hmm.. i remember him as a crybaby cuz last time when i used to always play downstairs with them, he often tends to get angry over small things. like he got PMS like that. hahaha.. but now... his voice break liao. i guess he's more mature. i hope he is. haha. and he took his PSLE liao. he probably wants to go to swiss cottage. yea..

man.. i kinda miss those days. i miss primary school times.. oh oh.. the other time, i was chatting with firnaz on facebook. guess what. he told me he misses me. awww.. haha. among other things lah. it felt kinda awkward but it was sweet. lol. he misses everyone in singapore. the thing is he's in india and most probably won't be coming back to singapore until he's an adult lah. sad man..

i suddenly remember playing soccer, badminton, cricket, catching, police and thief, blind mice and iceman with karthik g, firnaz, m karthik and everyone else.. it was super fun. i also remember the old man that would complain abt calling the police when we played police and thief. hahahhaha! man.. the good ol' days..

haha.. suddenly so sentimental.. contemplating abt the past.. ok... moving on.. this friday got ymc session but got ncc training for part Bs also.. then this saturday got bbq!! afiqah's birthday.. at changi.. yea. that's all. enough crapping. bye.

one more thing.. i wonder how she's doing at the bbq. hope she's having fun.

kay bye for real.

short post!! erm, i bumped into iqah's dad and shazwani on the way home from lot 1.. haha.. shaz emo sia.. never say goodbye.. nevermind. haha. hmm.. i think i lost my soccer skills liao. it took me A LOT of attempts to score a single goal during the game after ncc meeting.. dammit. lol. AND.. i definitely have to/must/should start on holiday homework and revise for common test. common test is on the second week of school next year.. what a bummer. i can't screw things up anymore. MUST BUCK UP.. ok. this post quite long huh? haha. i'll end here. bye!

hey, just felt like posting. had our gamelan performance yesterday.. just played one song though we kinda practiced 2 songs. but nvm, like hafiz hashim said at least we didn't screw up. met my primary school junior too.. one word. AWKWARD. haha. she's not the same Suri i knew then. oh well.. ppl change. she was actually modeling for the event. and she waved like a pageant queen when we were leaving the place. haha. the event was a wedding in actual fact. i thought it was some malay appreciation thing though there was gamelan, malay dance, silat and stuff..

yea.. hmm.. yesterday was just awesome. i don't mind re-living yesterday again. haha.

oh yea. after sending her home, i saw her sister, kak nazia. i don't know whether she saw me or not lah. wanted to say hi but i didn't. haha. heck care lah.
and! i sent her a text around 1am this morning but i don't think she received it. sad. lol. nvm..

have ncc meeting 2mrw abt the upcoming camp.. boo!

erm, please bear with the picture below. don't mind ah. haha.

*edited*

photo brought down due to ?embarrassment?
haha. and.. the wedding for fake.. lol.

before alighting at bedok for ymc in the afternoon, a girl fainted in the mrt.
the way she fell was pretty rough i would say.
there was an old lady right in front of her.
so when she fell, her psp dropped to the floor.
the old lady was stunned and she was calling out, "hey! hey! eh! eh!"
her head kinda hanged on the old lady's arms for a second or two.
only then did she lie on the floor for a good five seconds.
she stood up with some help after her friends woke her up.
the girl must've been super embarrassed lah.
practically the whole cabin was looking at her.
pity her. i think she didnt eat breakfast of something.

oh yea, last night my dream was quite strange.
i was in school. but the school looked different and bigger.
i think there was a sports event. a big one.
i remember carrying a vacuum cleaner around. lol.
i was helping out i guess?
then then, i was in this corridor.
it was crowded.
then, i saw her.
she was zipping here and there.
so at one point i stopped her?
i said something. forgot what.
that's all i remember.
wait. there's one more thing.
i remember being disappointed in the dream.
i could recall more when i woke up lah. but right now forgot liao.

do check out the vid at the bottom.. =D

woots!! posting at this time.. lol.
so yesterday, on monday, had gamelan..
purposely came late.
guess who i met in the bus. her!!
haha. it happened like this lah.
was gonna alight. so i tapped my card.
then i heard someone tap too. at the other door.
naturally, i turned to look.
surprisingly, it was the person i wanted to see so much.
so happy.. haha.
gamelan was fun i guess. i played the gendang.
yea.. bla bla bla
went lot one ate at kfc and went to the library.
unfortunately, she lost her wallet there. so sad..
but what to do? we just couldnt find it.
wonder how naggy her mom was when she told her.
i think she tell already lah.
so we met myra.
teach her how to play guitar.
she's doing pretty well. fast learner.
yea. then went home lor.
but i was sad and gloomy otw home! didn't spend more time with her. but nvm lah.
haha. i walked idly lah.. super slow.
i actually took my time and didnt care abt wasting time. lol.
so walk walk walk to interchange, top up card, walk to bus stop then decided to walk home.
first time! well, actually, not first time lah. just first time alone. haha. at night.
thought abt things. actually, at one point of time while walking, i thought,
"walk slowly, who's know i'll bump into some ppl."
in the end, i met my grandaunt at the nearby mama shop. lmao.
i actually accidentally called her cik then she corrected me.
then otw up the stairs, i bumped into my old neighbourhood and ngaji friends. dalris and taufiq.
they were lingering at the lift. so i asked if the lift was stuck. yea it was. no wonder nth happened when i pressed for the lift. a few girls were stuck in the lift.
then then, taufiq asked me how come i dont come down to play anymore.
i didnt really answer lah. then dalris thought that i was in sec 4. well. technically, not yet.
then he actually asked, "hey, you NA or NT?"
LIKE WTH! so bad. didnt even ask if i was express.
so yeah. of course i clarified lah. dalris express also.
dammit. i felt quite insulted lah. haha. maybe it's cuz of the way i look. gah. who knows.
yea check out this vid.. kay i go sleep liao. got ymc later. i'll see if i wanna go..

i had the funniest dream last night. i dreamnt that i was Superman!! yes, the man of steel. haha. the dude there wear his red underwear on the outside. -_- so yea.. i was him.. i was strolling along this road. it was at night. i looked around. suddenly, things started moving quickly. apparently, i was in a restricted area. alarms sounded. army jeeps sped around and the door slowly shut down at the gate.

so, first thing i thought, "Run!" so i tried. but to no avail. i had leg cramps! hahahahhaha. like wth lah. the man of steel having leg cramps. wow. ironically, superman can run near the speed of light. haha. so yea, something told me Braniac was after me and i was in his territory.. you know? the super-villain...

yea.. i forgot i could fly also. i just went over the fence. with much effort i just tried to run. civilization was still not in sight. so just ran, jump into the monsoon drain and run some more.. then, i super jumped onto a tree. ahha. funny thing is, i had difficulty hanging on. haiyo. so strong also cannot hold on. maybe it's cuz my dream self is still exhausted from the NCC camp i just came back from 2 days ago. haha.

all of sudden, i was somewhere else, there were vehicles and housing estates. there was even an LRT station, the one right after chua chu kang. haha. then, i said to my wrist?? there was probably a communicator there.

"I need help"

the green lantern came! hahahaha. so he tried to help me. he made a bubble around me and tried to carry me. but his bubble broke. and i said, "kental ah kau" hahaha. braniac was still after me, i could tell.

suddenly, the martian manhunter came!!! haha. but then, Braniac's robot hit him from behind and his flew so far away..

then, i forgot everything. i just remember turning into spiderman. hahahhahahaha.

yea.. that was my weird dream. and to think i actually read my comic books last night after a very long time not reading them..

ya. haha. btw, i can play face down the acoustic version on guitar. yea!

kay ah. i'll go continue composing the song for her birthday.. haha. i might want to redo it.. haiya. haha.

actually, i don't feel like posting right now but i'll just post anw. to keep my blog alive i guess even though it seems like NO ONE AT ALL frequents it.. the photos above are from just now. credits to syafiqah for being my paparazzi. haha. thanks honey. don't mind my spastic face. the occasion? acara cukur rambut for syafiqah's super cute baby brother, Izz Zamil. did i get his name right? lol. it's a malay tradition if you didn't know. but i'm not gonna explain to you what it is. find out yourself. haha. i kinda felt out of place there cuz i was, most of the time, the only non-relative there. yea.. but heck care lah. i just TRIED to fit in? haha. whatever.

and.. it was my first time holding a baby!!! yay me!!! haha. i was truly delighted while holding Izz lah.. haha. it was kinda awkward at first cuz i didnt know how to play with a baby. but i just let loose? haha. he's super cute i tell you. and his eyes were sparkly. lol.. oh he had hiccups. cute! and he sleeps so peacefully.. awww. actually, he just took a nap lah. haha. cuz it was pretty nosiy there..

also, i finally met syafiqah's elder brother, abang riduan(did i get his name right?) and her god bro, abang ijai(did i get his name right? haha) personally.. it actually turned out better than i expected. truthfully, i forgot i was gonna meet them if i went for the occasion lah. funny thing is the first dude i shook hands with was syafiqah's elder bro. lmao..

yea.. that's abt it i guess.. other than that, i got owned twice just now. firstly was when kak yati, told me this joke. second time was when we played truth or truth since no one was opting for dare. haha.

yea.. lol.

i forgot.. i saw shafiq sabar in the mosque too. and i had a short nap just now. lol.

yo! back from friday prayers.. i met karthik g and vincent wong on the way to the mosque. damn. karthik is like a head taller than me lah.. what he eat sia? vincent wong? he's still as short. haha. no offence dude. then on the way home, met zulfiqar and yea. he's taller than me too. damn. i felt short. =(

oh yea, recently, i went for a medical check-up at the polyclinic. my height? 1.68m!!!!!! wtf lah. i shrunk!!!!! by a centimetre. -_- i wish it was the other way round lah. then at least i would reach 1.70m, the height i'm aiming for. lol.

ok. i really have no idea what i'm gonna do for the whole day. actually, i had planned to go cycling but since it just rained, i suddenly wasn't in the mood. so that leaves me with playing the guitar all day long while using the guitar. on the other hand, right now is a good time to sleep cuz of the weather.. it's so nice. haha. but most probably i won't be sleeping though i was totally burned out yesterday lah.

i was in school from 7 15am to 930pm yesterday. yea.. crazy. first part of the day, had Bukit Panjang League, i was in the Patrol team. yea.. but slacked most of the time. went to the library twice. haha. second part of the day, G7 campfire. it was awesome. i'm sure everyone had a great time. thanks to the scouts and guides for planning everything efficiently.

i guess i'll start with my epic idleness for the whole day. i'll see how it goes. i'll just go with the flow lah. haha.

didnt meet her... * gives huge sad but cute face* lol. nvm. she was tired anyway. actually, i was thinking of that also.. yea. haha.

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME!!! but i kinda ruined the day for myself and her.. =(
ah heck.. i won't elaborate on it lah. quite trivial.. i'll just spend my time wisely elaborating on the great day i had with her yesterday. =D

we, myra, syafiqah and i, met at cck.. i thought i was late. i waited there for abt 20 minutes? then i thought they had probably left me so i decided to go to the phone booth and call. got to know the had just arrived. lol. so yea. off to kfc.

munch munch munch munch, some lady suddenly sat beside myra. apparently, she was soliciting for this organization. so awkward lah she.. i think she knew she couldnt solicit in shopping malls but she just did it anyway. lol. then, off to bukit batok.

then, i taught them how to play You Belong With Me. haha. myra's getting good at it. syafiqah? can be better. just need practice and getting use to the changing from chord to chord lah. anyway, her hands are tiny.. haha.

then, pick up myra's sister from her school, minah. OMGEE. freaking hyper lah that kid. haha. she did this and that. and i just had to comply to whatever she wanted to do. i had to spin her around lah, let her win in every scissors paper stone game and let her pinch my cheeks. aiyo.. at one point i just sat down, played simon says with her, asked her to turn back and stay there. haha. so bad. i know.. but of course she didn't stay there lah.. -_-

then, we sat somewhere else.. bla bla bla. syafiqah's sister, kak syaza and her cousins, kak faezah and abg fairuz came.. fun lah. talk talk talk.. that abg fairuz can play some good songs on the guitar man. one i remember is down by blink 182. yea.. while he was playing the guitar, me syafiqah did magic with minah.. haha. so farnie.. oh ya, i'm hoping super hard that they won't post the vid they took of everybody on youtube. so paiseh! haha.

yea.. then went home lor.. don't wanna talk abt the last part. = p
bye.. going poly.........clinic later. meeting her too. =D

kay.. just posting for the sake of posting.. had malay O level paper yesterday since its 1am already.. it was ok. i'm hoping to get a B3 at least and an A2 at best. *prays really really hard*

fast forward to kfc.. haha. accidentally dirtied syafiqah's skirt cuz i hit my pepsi and it kinda knocked her chilli sauce off the table and onto her skirt. hope you don't mind me posting abt this. for memory's sake. =D

haha. really sorry hor.

kay.. i should really be turning in now but somehow i just feel like staying up and listening to songs on my hp all the way. like cool like that.. haha. not really ah. i'll see how it goes later. i have amath remedial later at 8am.. sian.. then got ncc meeting for g7 performance after that. haiyo.

sad life.. i didnt play the guitar that whole day yesterday. i actually wanted to but decided to do my amath ws instead.. but i felt asleep. from 8++ to midnight. so that's abt 4 hours of sleep already i just need abt 3 to 4 more hours.. haha.

oh yea.. i think i saw halidah's bro otw home.. lol. yea. that's abt it. bye. my whole family asleep liao. i should turn in too.. kay, bye for real.

finally got a tuner. idk why but i still feel sorry for syafiqah cuz she actually wanted to get me one for my birthday.. haha. but good thing she has something else on her mind. yay! haha. wokay.. i got a tuner now i just need a capo or i could just use a makeshift one with a pencil and a few rubber bands.. haha.

a few pics from yesterday, more on facebook.. met her at orchard. it was pretty weird to see her in baju kurung in orchard. not something you would see everyday. haha. something new. so yea, was just supposed to send her home but we kinda hanged out at the void deck for a while.. meaning 3 hours haha. from 6 30 to 9 30.. yea. found out abt a few things here and there.. yup. erm, i think i'll be getting a trim from the barber.. sad life. my hair looks great already.. =( right? say yes. haha. nvm luh. don't wanna be barred from taking the Olevel malay paper.. btw, the specs i wore in the pics are my sister's. it's the kind with no degrees.. yea. lol. kay.. that's all. =]

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will always love you no matter what

boohoo.. sad life. happened when playing soccer after school. oh, 2 balls got kicked out of school to the expressway road there. one was kicked by haziq and the other by rolu. haha. the one kicked by rolu was recovered thanks to the sec 2s. idk why they were so helpful. haha. we joked about taking a cab and pulling over at the side of the expressway just to get the othet ball. lol.

at one point of time we were kinda rude to the sec 1s who came to play. so actually, when we didnt have any ball to play with, sec 1s conquered the court. when we did have a ball, we couldnt possibly kick them out right? fortunately, their ball got kicked out of the court and we, the sec 3s just entered the court. we even cheered. automatically, the sec 1s just left the court.. =D

yea.. then went for the norming test and preparation for the bazaar 2mrw. my class totally changed our original game.. oh and our stall looks like NCC having a CCA roadshow. haha.. after setting up our stall played ONE TOUCH. hehe.. then then, all of a sudden, james ROARED.. haha.

"WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM???!!!???!!!"

so yeah,, we stopped playing. then, decided to go off. initially i wanted to go home but i decided to join the guys to eat at mac.. so there was rolu, hafiz, asyur, imran and i.. we spent more than an hour there lah.. we talked a lot man. haha. enjoyed it most definitely.. talked until 745 sia.. we came around 6 i think.. lol.

yup.. that about sums up my whole day..

one more thing... pls tag after reading my blog.. haha. my tagboard dead lah. haiyo. don't be stalkers and leave without tagging. hmmm, actually, i do that often. ROFLMAO. haha.. whatever. do tag. *grins widely*

haha.. pics from afiqah of the hari raya outing last saturday. fun luh. i posted these 2 pics cuz i look good in them. i do right? lol. to me i do ah. cuz i rarely look good in pics. hehe..

so.. today (eh actually yesterday since it's 12 plus already) went fico to play soccer with the guys.. the usual. ppl got injured here and there.

then after that eat at banquet.. meet her, walked aimlessly, met myra, followed a couple.. haha. then kfc, then. west mall, kfc again.. met her parents. sent her home. pick up minah. went home. yeah..

oh tmrw not going bob's house. sadded. was really looking forward to spending time with the nadim crew again.

kay ah that's all babes.. bye.

3rd monthsary yesterday.. went to school with her.. funny things happened here and there.. shall not elaborate.. must be discreet. haha. miss her so so very much.. and to think we only met yesterday. haiyo..

ok.. yesterday was also the inter-class games. soccer quite shitty ah. made my team lose.. missed a simple penalty.. haiyo..

cool for both cases above got the word miss. haha.

erm, gonna go jalan raya in a while.. hari raya ends on monday.. kay bye.

the team

EPIC FAILURE!!!

i know it's really lame.. and amateur-esque but to me, it actually looks cool. in fact, super cool. lol. looks much better in person lah. serious.. more of the shading can be seen. lol.

was sighing all the way home from school. -_-
physics detention just now was hilarious..

ok.. quick post. erm, life currently has been dreadfully draggy. i've no life. haha. maybe i should go get one. lol. i must start revising for EOY already lah. haiyo.. kay lah. end here. one more thing: i saw the moon this morning.. woots..

muahahahahahahahahahhahahahahaha!

cute.. =D

hope she won't kill me.. *prays really really hard*

my cousin from my father's side came just now. she's happily married with two cute daughters. weird thing is i have no idea who she was. haha. sucks man. but good thing there was a good conversation between my family and her family. oh ya, they invited us to their house. i really hope my dad would agree on going as a family to visit them.

i think i should draw a family tree. so if any relative idk comes by, i'll just ask and refer to the family tree. haha. good idea right? lol.

60 Things About Guys That Girls Don't Know Of

"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

Guys get jealous easily.

Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

Girls are guys' weaknesses.

Guys are very open about themselves.

It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

Guys will brag about anything.

Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

Try to be as straightforward as possible.

If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

Guys don't really have final decisions.

If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

Guys like femininity not feebleness.

Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

We don't like girls who are too skinny.

We love it when girls talk about their boobs.

Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like whether it's a one time deal or not ...

Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unnoticeably tell them about yours...

When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually.

Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

haha. found this in saved in my com. actually, some of the things up there are true luh. some aren't. so.... after reading this, i was itching to find out what guys don't know abt girls. hehe. so yea. after reading some of them on the net, i was inspired to become a better boyfriend for that someone. *raises eyebrows like the cadbury ad kids* lol.

anyway, had planned to study with her today. but it didnt happen. sadded. haha. nvm lah.. so yea. just stayed at home lor. except that i went out for a while just now to buy bandung. yummy. oh yea, my hair was on fire today as in hot. haha. cuz it was really spiky. simply hot. to me lah. dk what others would think. =P

i haven't done any revision today.. boo! not motivated lah.. just too lazy to do any. crazy right? haha. whatever.

erm, what else? i lost my guitar pick! damn. lol. ohoh! hazim's gonna help me replace my guitar strings and tune everything for me. hehe. thanks dude... by then, i can start playing again.

wanna see something random, funny and probably scary?? muahaha *evil laugh*

did this last night. have fun laughing or sorry if you'll get nightmares tonight. XD

wish i could play like her..

i started the day by going to the mosque for prayers. went alone. cycled there. the solemn occasion was really heartwarming. immediately after prayers before the khutbah, i wanted to go home. but i got held back cuz my slippers were covered with a mat which still had ppl sitting on it. haha. so i just listened to the khutbah as well lor.. initially, i thought i was gonna cycle home bare-footed. haha.

at home, i ate mum's hari raya cooking. hehe. deliciousooo! there was lontong, serunding, rendang, prawns, daging.. yummy. ate while watching TV. oh, i gotta say the sitcom in Sinar Lebaran this year is simply very amusing and hilarious. especially that Suhaimi Yusof. haha. he's a natural.

went to grandma's house.. i guess the whole experience was bittersweet.. one cuz i met not only my grandmother but i met my relatives. two cuz my dad wasnt there with us and i was pretty much clueless with who's who on my mother's side.

the thing is for the past many years i've been visiting my grandma every hari raya and every time for some unknown reason, my dad would be hesitant to join us. and every time it would be, eat, ask for forgiveness and go home immediately. i can tell without any doubt that my mum doesnt want to meet our relatives. amazingly, my mum wasnt successful this year.. i guess i cant blame my mum for wanting to. it's like there's a sense of embarrassment every single time my uncles and aunts ask, "Mane suaminye?"

until now, i'm pretty embarrassed when i go out during hari raya with only my mum and sis. no offence to my own mum but it's like she's a widow. seriously. even my sis said it.

besides feeling ashamed and such, i feel so empty. there's a like a void. even so, it feels so heavy. like a burden.. every single time, while walking, on the bus, anywhere.. if i see a complete family, i would just wish.. nvm.

so... even though it was a joyous occasion and all, i almost cried at one point of time and when everyone was leaving. the tears just flowed out. my sis cried too.. kinda felt empty again and disappointed with my dad. my uncle mentioned that even though we rarely meet, we're still family.. and yes, blood is thicker than water. i somehow felt some kind of closeness although i barely know them..

erm, right now.. i'm just trying to accept everything that Allah has laid out for me. i can't solely put the blame on my dad. i'll just pray the best for my dad. my family especially. i have to learn to be patient when handling things and not think too seriously abt things. anw, EOY is coming in 2 weeks..

RANDOM PART OF THE POST THAT PULLS ME OUT OF EMO MODE. haha.

Obek Osman's 5-year-old grandson has a PSP. and i don't even have one. haha.

Obek Osman's son, whose son is the cute bugger that has a PSP, has facebook and is gonna add me and my sis . haha.

Soki in boyan means rich.

Obek Osman live's with his 15-year-old son in JB. his wife passed away some time ago.

Obek Jamil has a grandson that, according to everyone else including him, looks like me. actually, i dont think so lah. haha.

according to Obek Osman, my mum was really shy when she was young. when someone would call out her name, she would run away really really fast. haha.

everyone thought i was the older sibling between me and my sis. -_- do i look that old? =( haha.

my cousin thought my sis was already working. she's still in sec 5 lah dey. and only 17. haha.

i think it's very rare to be tall in my family which includes my uncles blablaba cousins sedare-mare lah. according to Obek Jamil i am tall. everyone agreed. haha.

last but not least anyone know what kuih bidaran is? it's an old kuih.. my uncle has been asking his daughter-in-law, my mum and grandma abt it..

wokay.. that's all. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf zahir dan batin. forgive me for all my wrongdoings yea? May Allah bless you. =)

whoa... rugby today was a blast man. though it was pretty violent, i enjoyed the game a hell lot. i think everybody did lah. oh. there was one time when i was the ball and zakir was charging at me. so... tick tick tick

BOOM!!!

I BANGED INTO ZAKIR. it was like i ran straight into a wall lah. so both of us fell down lah. but i think i hurt zakir. not the other way round. haha. sorry dude. luckily enough when i was on the ground on my butt, i managed to grab the ball and get a touchdown, the first for my team. yea! haha.

and... there was one point of time when i was tackling veingad i think, i i slipped and hit my head on the ground. instantly, i was clutching my head cuz the impact was great lah. amazingly though, the pain was short-lived and i slowly got up. then, i saw someone running with the ball. so i just asked for the ball and sprinted for a touchdown. yea! lol.

on monday, 3p1 soccer team played against 1C. trashing man.. 8-0 sia. furthermore we had a lot of shots. hehe.

last but not least, 2nd monthsary! though there were a whole lot of hurdles and challenges, we're still together. thankfully. oh! and you're going for galur! best news ever. haha. love you honey.

kay. gtg. bye peeps.

just felt like posting this.. it's been a long time since i posted a youtube video on my blog anyway. term 4 starts exactly 2mrw. ugh. and i haven't completed any hw yet. haha. random thought: idk why afiqah and shazwani refer to me as a geek. siao. lol.

3weeks to EOY

3days to 2 months

hmm.. basic jungle survival course. 3days 2nights. yup. that's it. i'm totally lagging in hw. sure die. lol. need to chiong on sunday. but i don't think i'll finish sastera. in fact i'm not sure if i would want to do it lah.

erm, for sure gonna miss her. here's the thing. i think i'm obsessed with her. haha. think of her too much liao. make me stressed and depressed only. even thought of printing one of our neoprints and bring it to the camp. lmao. maybe syafiq's right. oh ya. thanks afiqah and syafiq. i'm hoping i can keep her off my mind.

kay ah.. gtg. need to get to yio chu kang by 6 30am. idk whether that's even possible. bye.

i'm such a sucky boyfriend.

most probably the worst you've ever had.

gawd, how i wish i could be the ideal boyfriend for you and won't create problems that.. that erm, idk, are lame? why are you even with me? i mean sometimes i just think i should break up with you cuz you really really really really really do deserve someone WAY better than me. but i just cant seem to do it lah. like i told you before, i would be damn sad if you were to leave me. wokay, maybe that's why i was depressed. i was thinking abt this.

i guess there are three things that make me a really sucky boyfriend. firstly, i find it hard to trust ppl. i guess i've had this for far too long that i can't even trust you wholeheartedly. there's just that tiny fraction of lack of confindence i have in you. believe me, i'm trying extremely hard to get rid of this feeling but i can't help but think you will surely leave me in future. this leads to me being highly pessimistic.

i've always hoped, from the start of our relationship, that it would last. but there's always a part of me that keeps telling me that it wont. no matter how much i tried to shake off this thought, it just keeps haunting me. invariably, making me depressed.

lastly, i'm not that confident in myself. i guess this is self-explanatory.

i'm starting to think all the small quarrels we've ever had are solely my fault. i just hope this feeling of hostility doesnt prolong.

i'm sorry i'm such a bad boyfriend to you.

i'm sorry i'm such a big distraction to you.

i'm sorry i'm so pathetic.

i'm sorry i'm so pessimistic.

i'm sorry i dont trust you wholeheartedly.

i know trust is a big issue in our relationship. but please, believe me at least. i'm trying my hardest to give you the trust that you've always longed for from me. i just need to change. give me time.

syafiqah, you mean the world to me. seriously. i just want you to be happy. always.

I love you. i really do.

erm, i think i'll go play wolfteam or something to forget abt what just happened. cuz right now, i feel utterly dumb and silly.. the fact is, the matter was simply trivial and i didnt want to make a big fuss out of it by telling you. but i guess i already did by dwelling on it too much and making myself depressed and shit. i'm such a fucking drama queen. it's high time someone told me that.

honey i'm really sorry. i wish you could slap me as hard as possible right now.

woots!! I reached the Monster Wolf status twice in Wolf Team. for those who don't know, Wolf Team is an online game where 2 teams battle it out. A player can turn into a human or wolf anytime he or she wishes. When one kills an opponent player, he reaches the Baby wolf status, kills 2, Battle wolf, 3, Elite wolf, 4, Blood Wolf, 5, Monster Wolf. all these are achievable in only one life of a player.. SO YEAH! I REACHED MONSTER WOLF!! I guess it's all thanks to the new weapon i bought and the upgrade i had for the weapon to lessen the recoil..

ok. erm, why am I telling you this? doesn't even matter to you right? nvm. haha. i guess it's an achievement for me. oh ya, i managed to kill players that were of higher rank than me. i also killed opponent players more than dudes that were of higher rank. i'm a sergeant in Wolf Team. woots!!

whoa.. 1am already. wonder if i can wake up for sahur later. nvm continue blogging. haha. omg.

so on saturday, went for YMC. new flash: i've been attending YMC workshops though i'm not an official member since end of last year. haha. yeah. somehow felt like an illegal immigrant. good thing i approached one of the facilitators and told him abt my situation. so yay for me cuz i gave him my particulars already and hopefully i'll become an OFFICIAL MEMBER.

at yayasan mendaki, i met PERKAMPUNGAN BUDAYA DAN BAHASA ppl. akashah and nazihah. it was unexpected lah. akashah was in the same session as i was. when it ended and hazim, daniyal, fadzly and i was abt to exit the building, someone just had to shout, "RIDZWAN!"

haha. obviously, it was nazihah cuz she's that high. oh, her friends think i'm hot. woots!! hahahaha. two words. bad taste. haha. correct right? whateverlah. lol.

so yeah.. we discussed abt CSC. dk what that is though. but we're supposed to contribute to the society. my group, decided to have a performance-cum-fun raiser. the performance? nadim and malay dance.. will be needing the nadim crew and malay dancers from bp and anderson sec. so might have collaboration. but.... it's just a proposal though. not confirmed. hoping like crazy it will happen. =D

hmm.. what else? i met miqdad and cikgu senan in the mosque just now. haha. oh, on saturday night, my ex-ustaz let me join him and his wife when he hailed a taxi to go to the mosque. just now, he chauffeured me together with his wife and daughter to the mosque. thanks cik haji.

oh. army open house.. aiyah, won't really talk abt it lah. just post pictures.

erm, i guess i'll talk abt my beloved syafiqah? haha. ok wait.. maybe i shouldn't. my thoughts abt you tak teratur(arent organized). but i just hope u're doing okay..

wokay.. i should end the post already.. so long sia. haha. 1 44am. nice one. kay, i'll go take a nap now. lol. oh ya peeps, check out this songs..

zero gravity - david archuleta

automatic - tokio hotel

died in you eyes - kristina debarge

kay. dude. sleep already.. haha. good 'night' peeps.

what's on my mind

fastingnofoodnodrinksmissabstainrefrainstayawayhersabarimancicakmanhahamiss

controlmanagerelaxhercantmustwontmissterawihmosqueprayingherdudecomeonmiss

youcandoitherknowbelievetrustmisssodamndifficultherfastingnofoodnodrinks

feels like cold turkey.. lol. have to tell myself this every second,

"Dude!! You're Fasting!!"

woohoo!! i can finally play 6 months by hey monday on the guitar.. ok. maybe jut most of it. haha. need more practice. and.. i can't seem to play the guitar when i start singing. ROFL. have to learn to multi-task!

oh.. gonna break fast soon. after solat maghrib, i'll go straight to mosque for terawih. hehe.. terawih is just so enlightening..

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can't keep you off my mind!!

Insyaallah! We will pull through.. Be strong kay? =)

happy fasting peeps.. yay! yay! can't wait to fast man. haha.

"3 days ago was our 1st monthsary. yay! is it too late to
say it? haha. nvm.. who cares."

blogging so early in the morning.. haha. erm, yea. did the line above sound like i forgot our monthsary? cuz it does to me.. lol. the truth is i didnt.. in fact, i was the first one to say it to honey at the stroke of midnight. hehe.. but i dont think i can beat honey's oh-so-sweet monthsary post.
=D

yo!! just felt like blogging now. haha. hmm.. what to blog about uh?
oh yeah got one.. 3 days ago was our 1st monthsary. yay! is it too late to
say it? haha. nvm.. who cares.

studied for ss and malay basically. met up with syafiqah and myra.
havent seen myra for quite some time lah.. suddenly, reminded of the time
when we played truth or dare, kiss or (tell)? something along that line lah.
haha.

so far... common test has been ok? physics was manageable to me but seemed
tough to some. oh, i failed eng compre.. got 11/25. 1.5 more marks. really hoping
Mrs. Lim would give those marks so that i can just pass..

erm, P.E just now was hilarious.. i ole-d a lot of ppl. kinda owned them. haha.
not that i was that good.. tyco2 ole one. lol. so yea. scored the first goal. it went thru
zhi sheng's legs.. so yeah. then, i hurt my right shoulder. was dribbling the ball, got tackled,
shoulder just had to hit the metal post of the fence.. syiok man. lol. just a slight pain lah right now.

erm,,, oh had a weird dream last night.. maybe i'll talk about it some other time.

enjoy. =D

YESSAH!!!!
finally got my own acoustic guitar.
woohoo!
got it in JB.
booyah!
haha. first time in malaysia sia..

went with honey and kak nazia.
it was fun? haha. i'm sure there's a better word to describe the short trip.
but i guess my vocabulary's just too limited. lol.

met this retired teacher who recommended to us a book.
Write It Right. Sold in MPH Store. while stock lasts. haha.
the amazing thing abt this guy is that he kinda gave us a lecture..
ok maybe not a lecture ah but he talked to us a lot.
i just asked 2 qns throughout the whole conversation..
and the conversation was like IDK how long lah.
i was thankful the bus arrived.. haha.

then, after buying tickets for G.I Joe went to eat.
i met Iman Wee from Perkampungan Bahasa dan Budaya. haha. farnie..
he recognizes me but dk my name..

after eating, took neoprints..
can lah.. haha. but to me, the neoprints in singapore is better.

afterwards, watched G.I JOE.
cool plot.

then, went to plaza kota raya.
bought my guitar!! woohoo!
hehe..

so yea. while waiting for kak nazia, honey told me sometihng.
haha. something unbelievable..

that's abt it lah..

few things i learnt from the trip was there's a lot of mats in malaysia.
hope daniyal wont turn into one. haha..

and.. i have to learn to trust ppl more.

GAWD!!!
I feel so useless!
how stupid was I to ask,"Are you ok?"
when obviously you werent..
stupid.

ok erm, i really hope you're alright lah.
it really saddened me when you were really down on yourself
and i couldnt even do a thing about it.

so cheer up kay?
ppl make mistakes..
yea. i know it's cliche lah but it's totally true.
just look at the bright side like you always do
ndp's over so you wont be as tired what.. haha.

and so what if you made mistakes?
dont dwell in the past.
that's what you always say right?

so so my point is..
CHEER UP!!! JANGAN EMO!

=)

random late night post.. haha.
currently, I Must be dreaming by The Maine is the only song i listen to.
listened to it to school and on the way home.. it's really nice.
you should check out the song lah.
haha i wish i can play the acoustic version..

and....

i pity honey!!!
she's really tired lah..
there's hw piling up... ndp
just tonight, she reached home late and couldnt finish any hw.
she had something on at her uncle's house..
i wish i could lessen your burden lah.
but i guess the least i can do is be there for you. =D

jiayou honey! be strong!

went for the cerpen writing workshop yesterday. truth be told, it wasnt boring at all. in fact, the writer who lead the whole workshop interacted very well with the participants. ada perang lah, dahagakan kasih sayang lah. haha. funny guy that faisal tehrani.

so yeah. after the workshop there was food. just ate lor. was full after eating. so i didnt eat anything at banquet. didnt even have enough money to buy food. just bought bandung. shared with honey luh. oh honey so nice feed me chicken rice but she needs practice uh. xD

oh yeah, when we were finishing our food, a malay lady suddenly came up to me from behind. she offered to give me food. she said she had to go home and wouldnt be able to eat it at home cuz the food will ?kembang?. haha. so i just accepted it lah. i didnt eat it though. gave it to syafiq.

after that went to play soccer with the guys. oh, haha. i played soccer not badminton. honey believed me. aiyo.. i was joking lah. and yes, 14 more days to our 1st month! and 15th more days to common test week. eng not counted. haha. so honey, better do your revision ah. tk psl2 nnt ur mom put the blame on me plak. okay ah, i haven't eaten breakfast yet.. bye

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love you too honey. =)

so today.. had MCS meeting. Congrats to those in the Executive Committee for next year! namely, the president is allisa and hazim is the vice president. i not inside sia.. haha. nvm.

after the meeting, played soccer. all was well when,,, the ball hit my you-know-what! haha. immediately after that i just had to get a cramp in my left leg. haha. but good thing i got it lah cuz i totally didnt feel the pain in my you-know-what. all i could feel was the excruciating pain in my leg.. haha. so funny i could still laugh and joke that maybe the ball hitting my you-know-what caused the cramp. lol..

oh ya! haha. hafiz accidentally kicked syafiq's neighbour's ball to the expressway.. baik uh.

after soccer went home with honey.. wished i had more value in my ez-link lah. could've sent you home. oh, and abt the distancing thingy, i dont mind lah as long as u're ok with it. but i'll definitely miss the closeness lah. xD i guess we should get used to it before the fasting month. haha. if you dont mind going back to being close again, i dont mind too. haha!

lagu sedap dok.. (direct translation: song delicious dok) haha. saw this on smallville. the whole thing just seems cool to me. lol.. oh! alamak. i'm using the com! hancur! haha. whatever.. i'll go do my sastera hw now.. bye you rare ppl reading my blog. lol.

woohoo! can finally post and upload pics. haha. wah, long time no post.. i wonder why. lol. no luh. i've been trying to get used to not using the com during the weekdays. i can definitely adapt to it lah. and i found out i have a lot of free time. haha. lame.. on the downside, i always feel sleepy really early in the evening like around 9? lol. and i tend to sleep while doing hw.. boo! haha. nvm lah.

ohkay, so last friday. nadim crew barbeque at west coast park. haha. man, getting there was tortuous sia. firstly we took a bus from clementi interchange around NUS and back.. -_- haha. so we took another bus the correct one but we missed the stop. had to alight and change sides.. then then, had to walk a long way before reaching the barbeque pit.

haha. the food was great.. everyone talked a lot sia. except for me uh. was just in the background. lol.. oh2, syaf and i got caught! shan't elaborate.. want to know. ask me personally on msn or something.. hehe..

and.. see the pic with me holding the guitar. yea. that isnt my guitar. it's the-glue's aka hazim lah. haha. i can play the starting part of wake me up when september ends!! coolio.. haha. oh, i bet most of you didnt know that my cousin lent me his guitar to me.. it's the 2nd pic of the post.. if you can see clearly, it's missing the E string. haha. and i had to make it worse.. now the D string is out of place. haha. man, i'm a noob. messed it up by trying to tune it using the fifth fret rule thingy. must've tuned it too tight..

so so, after, i get the required strings and tuning device and tune the guitar EASILY, i wanna learn how to play a lot of songs namely, 6 months - hey monday, make you smile - plus 44, wake me up when september end - green day and many more.. lol.

yea. that's abt it lah. oh, doesnt zheng jie look hilarious in the last photo? hahaha. funny sia.
oh.. boo! common test is in 2 weeks' time. bummer. better start revising now.. kk. check my blog for future posts.. haha.

hahahahahahahaha! OMGEEEEE!!!!!!! LMAO!!!!!!! kk, relax dude. phew.....

16/07/09

16-7=9. stylo right? haha

5:00pm.

omg. yesterday, was a whole lot of fun man. i'm really glad i was a part of the whole thing lah. i will surely remember and miss everything we went through just for that one sole performance. job well done to everyone who contributed to Nadim: Misi & Visi.

really satisfied the audience enjoyed it yesterday. to those who didnt. nvm lah. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLISA! thanks for the party. the food was great especially the cake. yummy. haha. you're FUNKY fifteen now so act like MY age. chey. haha. enjoy u're presents. =D

drew this in school.. nice anot? lol.

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i dont know what to do anymore.

2nd day of term 3, had sastera class in the library and it was as cold as ice. lol. PE! haha. I especially had a lot of fun though my team lost both in soccer and basketball. i fell during soccer and i have an acute pain in my ankle right now. pro. haha. during eng, played wheel of fortune with imran. emath, nth much. mother tongue was fun. somehow. lol. history.. we have a new teacher in class, Mr Zhuang. so we now have 3 including ms tay and ms raiha. haha.

oh ya, we got to see our class photos.. ok lah. but one candid photo made me look like i lost a tooth. -_- haha.

and....... my cousin havent called. he said he would when he found his guitar to lend it to me. haha. yea.. dont have enough funds to buy my own yet. it'll be really great if i had my own though.

oh check out this song. super nice! i have it in my hp! haha.

We Both Know Feat. Guy Sebastian - Amy Pearson

We both know
Where the runs where the river flows
When the sun sets while the night is cold
We both know We both know
When we smile and lie
When the truth is told
That the writings on the wall at home
We both know

Those dark clouds bring all the winter rain
Something tells me we'll be together again

At the end of the day
Though my heart burns
I am still in love (im still in love, i am still in love with you)
As our dreams fade away and the world turns
We will meet strangers on that road
And feel like, we both know

I watch the flame
Its flickering in the wind again
Its blowing out before nature has its way
While there's love to save

We both know
That we're holding on cos we cant let go
Have to give up on the fear of being alone
Yea we both know

As night falls we lose sight in the haze
Something tells me we will be together again

We both know
That the sands of time have run on through
And though i wish that it wasnt so
We both know

first day of term 3. hmm... i guess i was too pessimistic about it. nothing major happened. didnt even get scolded. but something hilarious happened during malay class. so hafiz just finished reading an article. cikgu was just praising him when suddenly, hafiz falls back in his chair! hahaha. i should've seen his face lah. would've laughed like no mother.

oh. during MCS. the moment i came in, i saw a group of girls kicking a ball around the room. haha. then, some of the guys joined in to play.

anddddddddd.............. azlinda got PWNED! haha. hazim accidentally kicked the ball to her face. aiyo. lol.

hmm.. a few hours ago, i was checking my student handbook and found this quote.

Some people think you are strong when you hold on. Others think it is when you let go.
- Sylvia Robinson

obviously, it got me thinking lah.. hmm... should i hold on and hope for the better or just learn to let go? well to let go doesnt really mean to lose hope right? is it? lol. idk. i think i should hold on lah cuz i dont wanna do anything i'll regret in future but a big part of me tells me i should just let go. ahaha. wth. this isnt an emo part of my post hor.. was just thinking and typing along. =D

yesterday, bangsawan was relatively a lot more fun compared to past practices. The pegawai-s had to act like gays at one part. haha. and we get to pose when it comes to curtain call.. yay! lol. oh and there's a possibility khai and I will have to show some skin for the play.

*raises eyebrows* aha. so maybe you girls out there will be able to see our hot bods. hahahahahaha. just kidding! i bet khai doesnt mind lah. but i do. lol. damn, have to train my abs. rofl..

after bangsawan, went for friday prayer. prayed in the sun! first time! lol. so yea. then, went to lot 1 to meet up with syafiqah. then, off we went to vivo. the plan was to go sentosa and meet up with shazwani there but we met at vivo instead.. so yea.. met up with shaz. and your hair isnt funny lah. haiyo.. then then, ate at banquet. after buying my food, i found out that shaz had to go home. like what?!?!? all of a sudden? lol. then shaz cried! aiyo! why you cry?!?! oh ya. just remembered. she wants me to call her today.

so after shaz went off, we went to the Sky Park. haha. played at the wading pool. so weird lahcuz there were only two of us. then, i met hyper syafiqah.. haha. she goes hyper when she's bored. good thing i'm really patient. if not, you would have gotten really drenched lah. then then, i told her something. she thought i was gonna ask her for stead. lol. wth.. and and, i told it to ur face seh. and it's counted. =D

after much crapping, we decided to go off. yea.... that's about it luh. i got to know more about syafiqah yesterday. lol.