i'm a loser

i watched a movie on channel 5 last night. it was called the assassination of richard nixon. after watching the movie, i thought a lot. the main character, sam bicke in the movie was a loser. he had a failed marriage, was a social misfit n didn't take control of his life. one day, his colleagues gave him a self-esteem building with books n all to be a better salesman. he began to plan his own business. later on in the movie, he was expecting an important letter from a company. one day, he received a letter from the department of marriage. his wife wanted a divorce. he was reluctant to let go of her. but he could not do anything else. then somehow, after watching richard nixon, an american president on tv, he wanted to kill him. he felt that the president didn't deserve to be a president cuz he thought the president was just money hungry i think. so he planned the assassination. he wanted to hijack a plane n threaten the pilot to fly the plane right into the white house. on that day, after killing a few ppl including a pilot n being wounded by a law enforcer, he commited suicide. after reading the summary of the movie, u would probably be like this --> =_= so?

if u watched the movie, u will understand. i asked myself, am i a loser? if i'm not one, would i be that shy not to even greet an ex-clasmate even though we wait at the same bus-stop n board the same bus almost everyday. would i be wasting every second of my life staring at the com all day when there is better things to do in life? would i be getting grades that r to ppl "good enough"? would i be having insecurities? would i be making decisions which i will regret making later on in life? hmm... i'm really a loser... have to admit