New Sound

I stumbled upon two bands while tumblr-ing; The Cab and This Condition.

The Cab - Vegas Skies

This Condition - She Loves Me

Way To Go

Just when I thought things were gonna get better. Guess I was wrong. I just feel so pissed. It doesn't feel good at all when your heart aches. I want it to go away. But it isn't that simple. Damn. To think it's only the first day of the week. And school just started. What a bad start. Way to go Ridzwan.

Lately

I've been waking up everyday feeling like I've just cried the whole night. My eyes would feel swollen, I'd feel like not giving a damn about any plans I have that day. It's just terrible. Just this morning when I woke up, my first thought was, " I'm freaking tired. " I hope it'll be better tomorrow morning.

On another note, writing in a diary is kinda depressing for me. For the most part, when I'm down and I write about it, I'd feel worse. And yea, you're probably thinking, " Dude, you mad? Isn't blogging the same? " About that; At least, when I blog, other people can read it. Actually, the main reason is so that I can get a certain message to a certain someone.

And to that certain someone, I'm hope you're doing fine. If you're not, please be okay.

Awkwardness

You know that awkward feeling when you don't know what to say to your new-found friends and you just stand around pretending that it isn't awkward? Obviously, it's normal to feel that way. Just give us a few weeks and I'm sure we can get along fine. Oh yea. I met a few 'long-time-no-see' friends today. I met Jinghui, Lin Htoo, Saklani and Wei En. I kinda miss secondary school life already. Man, I can't wait for orientation to end and for school to officially start.

Thinking of You

I have no idea how I'm gonna get through the 3 months without you. Well, yea. I know it's not like I won't be seeing you at all. But it just won't be the same. Even so, I'll try.

• Nasi ayam
• Brownie
• Cream Cheese Bun
• Bukit Batok Nature Park
• Perky butts
• 2012
• Getting married
• Children
• Future
• Cheap Specs
• 3 months
• Us

I want to make you believe in happy endings.

Let's work towards it together. :)

A Day To Remember

I was really happy yesterday. I got to spend the whole day with Iqah. Oh! I have to say she looked pretty in the white dress. We went on an unplanned hike from the Forest Walk all the way to Vivocity. Well, I thought it was gonna be a simple walk but it turned out to be full of steep roads and trails. I actually felt sorry for Iqah cuz her feet were in pain. At least we had fun. Right Iqah? Say yes. :) Then after that, we went to Pahlawan Beach! Lying down in the sand under the sun beside the coconut tree, eating Hot & Spicy potato chips, talking, cam-whoring, joking and laughing.. Memorable.

Macbook

Man.. I'm not sure my dad can help me get it tmr. So, I guess the plan for tmr is to check out the exhibition at NP and try to get the Macbook by Hire Purchase. If not, got to apply for the interest-free loan or rental scheme or, get it at a cheaper price somewhere else.

Gah! I want one to call my own! Hmm.. Maybe I shouldn't be too picky. Anyway, I need it for school. As long as I get one before the first semester starts.

Teenage(r's) Dream(s)

4 nights in a row. I wonder why. Maybe it can happen for a week. Who knows.

******

Nah.. Make that five times. Five times in 96 hours. Lucky me.

******

Okay. It's the 11th today. Guess what. It's been 5 nights in a row. Awesome. Lol. So in total, six times in 120 hours. Whoa.

Enrollment Package

Where are you? It seems like everyone else got it except me. Why? Why make me wine like a swine? It sucks opening the mail and not seeing anything inside. If I get it though on Monday hopefully, I'll be the happiest guy on that day. If I don't get it, I'll have to give NP a call then. So troublesome.

Down

I think it's hardest for me to be miserable cuz every time I'm down. It feels like I can't really tell anybody. And every single time, I wanna cry. But I can't. I wanna feel really vulnerable. But again, I can't. Everything is just pent up, bottled up, right in my chest. Honestly, it hurts. I hate the feeling. I mean, who doesn't? It's so hard to get rid of. It just seems like there's no way, no solution. Then again, you might think (that's if anyones reading this) I'm just being a drama queen or I'm being too emotional. Maybe I am. Actually, I hate the fact that I'm a tad too sensitive. At times, I tend to react way too negatively towards what people say or do that might hurt me or the ones I care for. Maybe it's the way I am, the way I was brought up. I don't know. I can't just stop being too sensitive, can I? Trust me, if there was a way, I would totally go for it. Cuz my over-sensitive attitude sometimes hurt others too, even though I don't mean to. And it upsets me further that I unintentionally hurt someone that's trying to help lessen my emotional strain. Even when someone tries to console me, I'd want to be even sadder. Is that weird? I think it is. I am weird. Actually, I think no one truly knows who I am and the things I've done except God. Sometimes I wish I'm not the way I am. I wish I could go back in time and correct my mistakes so I wouldn't end up this way. But what's the use? I might just screw it up all over again. In conclusion, I've no idea why I did this. Maybe I thought I'd feel better if I did. Well, I do. Just a bit. Not so much. It's just a random emo rant by a typical teenage boy. Maybe I'm having mood swings. I don't know. I don't care what the reason is. I just feel down. And I don't really expect anyone to care. Wait. Maybe I do. I don't know. Whatever. I'll feel better after a good night sleep.

Blogspot's Dead

It seems like no one uses blogspot anymore. Well, my sister's still active but there used to be more people actively blogging. It's probably due to facebook and tumblr or the fact that they don't find the need to post on blogspot. I'm proud to admit I'm using tumblr. Guilty as charged. :D The above are some of the things I've re-blogged or posted.

If you're reading this, well guess what, you're one of a few that goes to my blog or you're just a plain stalker. Just kidding. Well, fact is I won't be posting on here much. Most of the time, the posts would be random and have long intervals between them. Moral of the story is, if you're still following this blog of mine, you'd have to have patience for the post or stop following. Ciao.

Well, this is a little update. I initially wanted to cycle to Marina Barrage but I couldn't figure out how to. So I settled with Marina Bay. It was exhausting. My palms were all red from grabbing at the handles for too long. By the way, I like my RayBan sunglasses

I'm not sure whether I'm going out tomorrow. Supposedly, I'm meeting Iqah. She wants to go rollerblading at Bukit Batok Nature Park? Haha. Yea. But no news yet from her. TEXT ME SOON IQAH! I've no idea if she's gonna read this. Haha. Wait. Are there any other visitors to my blog? Seriously. Cuz it feels like my girlfriend's the only visitor. Do leave a tag yea? Ciao.

Release of O level Results 2010

Mr Chua: Too many A2s

Ridz: *thinks*"So did I do well or not?"

Well, disappointments first. I got an A2 for Emath, and a C5 for Malay Lit. I was aiming for an A1 for Emath but I didn't get it. I wanted at least an A2 for Malay Lit. But hey, I did better than I expected for English. A2 :D. And I was so elated that I received the same grade for A-freaking-math. Haha.

Oh yea. I was totally broke after eating at Delifrance with the guys after receiving our results. One last thing. Gotta congratulate BPGHS Batch 2010 for bringing the school back up to Band 1. I'm so proud. ^_^

First Youth Alive Lesson

I was on my way to Al-Mukminin Mosque, expecting to be in a normal classroom with normal classroom tables and chairs with plain white walls. Well, guess what. I was the only student who knew about the lesson this morning. On top of that, I was sitting on a tiny yellow plastic chair with my long legs tucked under a turquoise table. I was surrounded by a myriad of colours. Then, there was a baby pink slide in one corner, 'protected' by a 2D fort pasted on the same corner. There was a bright red unicorn/donkey staring at me with its round eyes, laughing at the situation I was in.

But, on the whole, the lesson was fruitful I would say. In addition, I was released early. I'm really hoping more people would come for the lesson next week. That way, we can have group discussions. If not, it'll be a tiny bit awkward for the Uztazah and I. Do come people! :D

Different

While many were dragging their still-in-holiday-mood bodies to school early in the morning, I took my time before going over to Imran's house for a day of video games. I had fun. It's nice to know we don't have to worry about homework, what books to bring and waking up early!

Oh! Guess what. My Internet's back! Despite my ecstatic state upon realizing my Internet connection was back from the dead, I quickly found out that I don't do much surfing. Which then, results in me getting utterly bored. Okay. Exaggeration much? Hmm.. Usually, it's just Facebook, blogging, a bit of Youtube and that's it.

So.. in turn, my boredom led to me creating a Formspring account! You're able to ask me anything on my profile and I'll try my best to answer appropriately. So far.. No one has asked me anything!

Haha. A day in life.

Ask me anything :D http://www.formspring.me/Ridzthewheez